- Title: 不正经关系 (Improper Relationship)
Author：御小凡 (Yu Xiaofan)
Translator: K (@kin0monogatari)
Protagonists ：严海安 (Yan Hai’an – MC), 孙言 (Sun Yan – ML)
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Sun Yan probably smiled on the other line: “Otherwise? Don’t let my wine go to waste this time, eh?”
Yan Haian opened his mouth and asked, “Who wasted it?”
Only after they got in touch did they realise that they had a lot in common with each other. For example, they both liked wine tasting. Sun Yan grew up drinking good wine since he was a child, while Yan Hai’an specially cultivated himself for a period of time and he was still up to the standard. He had worked in a bar and he still knew quite a lot about wine.
Before going to the bedroom that day, there was a lively chat. Sun Yan moved out a few bottles of wine that were treasured at home and the two mixed them on their own, preparing to turn theory into experience.
It’s a pity that they are all masters who can only drink and are not good at mixing it. The mixed drinks are naturally not good at all. The taste is mixed but there is no special taste to speak of. They can’t fool themselves either.
As soon as Yan Hai’an arrived at Sun’s house, Sun Yan followed the procedure and asked, “Have you eaten yet?”
Yan Hai’an rolled his eyes and said, “I’ve eaten.”
Sun Yan shook his head very skillfully and motioned for Xu Hong to leave.
Xu Hong took another housekeeper back to the servant’s room with a wink, creating the illusion that there were only the two of them in the entire villa. Since Yan Hai’an came here, he planned to do it with Sun Yan. But when he fell into bed with Sun Yan, his headache became more and more severe. His limbs were sore and his cold seemed to have a tendency to worsen. He really had no interest in making love at all.
Sun Yan kissed him enthusiastically and stroked his dick, but it was of no use at all. Yan Hai’an felt like he had become a salted fish and he didn’t respond at all.
Sun Yan has been on the battlefield for a long time, how can he not sense when the people under him are not in the mood? After kissing and kissing, he stopped. He sat up with half-squinted eyes: “What’s the matter?”
Yan Hai’an lay in a state of rest, staring at the ceiling with a numb feeling in his chest. He listened to Sun Yan’s tone that had turned a little bad: “Who are you thinking about? Could it be that Mo Yisheng pissed you off so you ran to me to spread your legs?”
Mo Yisheng’s name successfully touched Yan Hai’an’s nerves. He rolled his eyes and stared at Sun Yan.
He could feel that Sun Yan should be a little angry.
He had to sit up and sighed: “Sorry. I’m not feeling well today. I’m not in a good state.”
Yan Hai’an originally wanted to do it with Sun Yan. But if he couldn’t exert his strength, he wouldn’t be able to exert his strength. Anyway, it wasn’t him who was emotional. But his thoughts belonged to his thoughts, and his body had other thoughts. When someone is sick, do they still want to roll the sheets with energy?
“You are not tired of being with Mo Yisheng every day,” Sun Yan didn’t know that Yan Hai’an’s discomfort was really physical. He just thought that this person was in a bad mood with himself. He raised his voice abruptly, as if his long-standing anger was finally ignited by a spark: “But you’re not in the mood when you are with me?!”
At first glance, Sun Yan liked Mo Yisheng very much. The most straightforward desire of a man was that he wanted to sleep with him. Everyone wants to touch beautiful and pure things. And it will be better to be able to touch them, especially for someone like him who likes to play around.
But now, every time, he will look for Yan Hai’an. But Yan Hai’an surrounds Mo Yisheng. Every time he chats with Yan Hai’an, he can hear Mo Yisheng’s name. Yan Hai’an has the spirit to serve Mo Yisheng no matter what. And after serving Yi Sheng diligently, he dared to tell him that he was not in a good state.
Sun Yan wanted to hire someone to kill Mo Yisheng.
Sun Yan has never been so aggrieved by this kind of thing in his life. He is like a dog in heat who always wants to hug and rub against Yan Hai’an. But Yan Hai’an was never interested in him! Never! He felt disgusted.
How much his self-esteem is hurt. Is he so bad?
The young masters of the Sun family are used to being chased by others. Sun Yan said embarrassedly: “Why do you like Mo Yisheng so much but come to my bed?! How many times have you done it with me? Why are you pretending to be pure? “
Yan Hai’an’s pupils shrank. His heart couldn’t help speeding up. He felt his chest tightens. There’s dizziness and pain in his head and he couldn’t tell what was more uncomfortable for a moment.
The physical discomfort aggravated the emotional loss. He couldn’t control his mood and it descended to the bottom like a roller coaster. At that moment, he even felt that he was really cheap.
If it’s really just for fucking, why does he have to bring him to his own house over and over? He should have made an appointment at a hotel. And the room charge will come together with condoms and lubricants. After fucking, they can go their way separately, no need to send each other text messages so much, no need to quietly go to his circle of friends where there are only three posts, and no need to go get him as soon as he call.
Or is it always like this? He has been so ridiculous from the beginning. If he insists on continuing, isn’t he hypocritical?
After all, he was too lonely. He is gay, sensitive and has proud heart which was neither willing to follow through nor confused. He doesn’t have any friends. His family doesn’t understand him. Even Mo Yisheng, who has been with him the longest, can’t understand him. He can arrange his work and life in an orderly manner. And he can deal with others smoothly. But he is like a complete outsider. Even his loneliness is hypocritical. He is out of place.
So even if he doesn’t want to admit it, he still expects too much from this relationship. And he expects something out of it without admitting it in the first place.
But it’s all just a hormonal whim.
Yan Hai’an sat up with a splitting headache, calmly looked for his clothes to put on, and said to Sun Yan, “Then, I’ll go first.”
His unspoken intentions are so obvious that it doesn’t take much to make it clear that this is the signal of the end for their relationship.
Yan Haian walked out of the door and closed the door behind him gently. Even at this time, he still has to maintain his posture and refuse to be inferior in the last round.
Sun Yan was still wearing his trousers. He was sitting on the bed, gasping for breaths, hitting the bed with his fist, and hurriedly chasing him out.
Yan Hai’an was going down the stairs when an object suddenly hit his feet. The sound of the wooden frame shattering could be heard loudly.
More than ¥20million worth of famous paintings are smashed to the wall by Sun Yan. The broken frame bounced on the ground several times and rolled to the bottom of the building.
Yan Hai’an glanced down at the wreckage and then raised his head to look at Sun Yan.
Sun Yan was not wearing his shirt, looking down at him from above: “Who are you doing this to? Do you think I can’t find anyone else to sleep with?”
Mr. Sun, your line is so retarded that I am embarrassed just listening to it, Yan Hai’an thought.
Yan Hai’an clearly laughed at Sun Yan’s naivety. If Yan Hai’an wants to maintain his demeanour, he must be reasonable. He must be reasonable. Must be reasonable…
Yan Hai’an put his hand on the armrest of the stairs: “Mr. Sun, I have never doubted this. I just think that since we are not satisfied with each other, we should find someone else. You can find someone else. Do you think that I also can’t find someone else?”
“You want to find someone else?!” Sun Yan, like an angry lion, rushed in front of him in only two steps. He grabbed his wrist which forced his knuckles to turn white.
There was no expression on Sun Yan’s face at this time, only a pair of eyes as black as thick ink, calm like all the storms dormant in an instant. It is also like a predator assessing his prey before slaughtering it. It looks like a beast has been released.
He said word by word slowly: “Yan Hai’an, you can try to find someone else. Whoever that touches you, I’ll cut his hands the fuck off.”
Yan Hai’an’s wrist was in pain as if it was about to break, but he didn’t show the pain at all. But Sun Yan was pulling his hand so tightly. He felt as if it wasn’t his wrist that was being pulled, but it was his heart. Yan Hai’an puts a layer of invisible steel on his heart. He asked flatly, “What do you want?”
This question was like a whip. And Sun Yan’s hand was loosened, but he quickly tightened his grip again. His thick eyebrows were slightly frowned, he gritted his teeth, and he did not speak.
No matter how strong the momentum is, it cannot stop the silence.
Yan Hai’an puts another layer of steel on his heart: “Mr. Sun, I’m really leaving.”
“Yes, your Plato is still waiting for you at home.” Sun Yan changed his face and said gently, “Every time you feel comfortable with being fucked by me, you can go back to face your cinnabar mole with peace of mind.”
Yan Hai’an also smiled: “I didn’t expect that Mr. Sun also knew about Plato and cinnabar mole.”
The two stood very close, as if they were about to fight in the next moment. And as if they were about to kiss each other as well in the next moment.
“Why is my painting here?” Sun Ling’s voice rang out, “Sun Yan, you prodigal son, do you know how much this painting’s price has gone up to now?”
He smiled and asked, “Yo, what’s the matter with you two?”
Sun Yan let go of his hand and turned his head to look aside. Yan Hai’an escaped smoothly and walked downstairs: “I’m sorry for bothering you.”
Sun Ling is still an elegant and elite figure who drags luggage with one hand and with a coat hung on the other hand: “You’re not bothering me. I don’t often have guests at home, so it’s very deserted.”
He glanced at the back of Sun Yan’s escaping the scene and smiled at Yan Hai’an: “Sun Yan’s strength is neither light nor heavy. Is your hand okay?”
Yan Haian said politely: “Boss Sun must be joking. How could something have happened?”
“Aunt Xu.” Sun Ling said to Xu Hong, who was hiding somewhere just now. Or did she see him leaving the room from the beginning? “Find some medicine for Mr. Yan.”
Yan Hai’an said immediately, “No need for that.”
Sun Ling smiled, but did not waver. He did not intend to continue to be polite. He just looked at Yan Hai’an like that.
When Xu Hong brought the medicine, he handed it to Yan Hai’an: “My brother is a bit of a jerk sometimes. He’s just a child who hasn’t grown up yet. And he likes to play around. I’ll scold him for you first. You can wait for him to pass. I apologise to you in his place but it’s up to you to beat and scold him if you want.”
He can scold Sun Yan who is pretending to be forceful and Yan Haian can’t say anything to the friendly Sun Ling. He accepts his kindness and smiles reluctantly: “Boss Sun is really good at joking. I’ll take my leave first.”
“Slow down. My driver shouldn’t have gone far, do I need to give you a ride?” Sun Ling is very good at grasping the degree. This time, he did not force Yan Hai’an to accept it. After asking in a negotiated tone, he was rejected, and said, ” Then be careful on your way.”
After seeing Yan Hai’an off, Sun Ling couldn’t hold it in any longer. He threw his suit to the ground: “This expensive painting was turned upside down, huh?! What’s going on?!”
Xu Hong said worriedly: “I don’t know either. Originally, the two of them entered the room well. But then they quarrelled after a while. Mr. Yan rushed out and the second young master chased out after him.”
Handing the luggage to Xu Hong, Sun Ling stepped upstairs and pulled the door handle. It’s fine if it’s locked. It doesn’t matter, he has the key.
After unlocking the lock, Sun Ling pushed the door open. Only one crack was opened. The chain was fastened inside.
“Sun Yan, are you a man after all?” Sun Ling said across the seam, “Don’t tell me that you don’t like him if you bring him home day after day. Tell me about the rest of the people you slept with, has I ever met any of them? You touch your conscience and tell me!”
There was no sound at all from the inside.
Sun Ling could just imagine the cowardly guy holding his head and squatting in the corner. He thought that he was a miserable eldest brother. If someone else were to have a gay younger brother, he might have to coerce him and induce him to be on the right track. But he can’t just leave him here, leave this man alone like a dog. As long as he can cure his brother’s heartache, he will feel at peace.
Although he was sad when his parents died, he had nothing to regret. However, Sun Yan was different. At that time, he was in the middle of a rebellious period. He was arguing with his brother who ‘excluded him’ and his parents who were ‘eccentric’. He went to another country and refused to come back during the Chinese New Year. If it weren’t for this, their parents wouldn’t have made a special trip to comfort their young son in their thirties.
Sun Ling’s tone was straightforward: “Sun Yan, I’ll just say one sentence. Do you want to feel regretful again?”
***The author has something to say:
Sun Ling: Raising a younger brother is like raising a child. It is tiring.
Famous painting: Huh! It hurts so much. I just wanted to be hung on the wall quietly and pretend to be dead for you.
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Next update: 2022.06.06
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*Translator’s note: If I’m not mistaken, the concept of ‘cinnabar mole’ originates from a novel by Zhang Ailing ‘Red Roses and White Roses’ which is basically about infidelity. The white is the wife. The red is the mistress. I don’t really understand it but you get the gist. I have no idea why Plato is there though. Plato is a philosopher. I think he criticizes art. So, hmm. I’m sorry I really don’t why Sun Yan mentioned him. If I’m wrong please correct me. Thanks. -K
