TSTFTR Chapter 26

After Yu Qiu and Xan Yun got together, they didn’t actually have a serious date. Xuan Yun would to travel all over the country, so Yu Qiu could relax and write manuscripts at home everyday. The most frequent communication between the twos was on a video calls.

“Do you think we are like online dating?”

“Like”, Yu Qiu laid on the bed, holding up his phone, laughing non stop, “Beautiful QQ Love.”

Yu Qiu knew what he wanted, nothing more than kisses and hugs, not cold “good night”, but it was difficult for him to give Xuan Yun. Yu Qiu knew how to create romance, but rarely gave Xuan Yun a promise– A face to face promise.

If he promised to give it all at will Yu Qiu couldn’t make up the gap caused by him.

But in May, Yu Qiu received an urgent mail.

The sender was a pseudonym, and Yu Qiu didn’t know who. But after opening the package, he smiled softly.

A rose and a concert ticket.

The rose was still fresh, and the ticket was placed in the isolation bag, with the time written on it. May 20th, internal ticket front row SVip Seat.

Xuan Yun may not be able to do anything else, but he was good at opening the back door for his wife.

So many people had heard Xuan Yun sung. But Yu Qiu actually had not heard it often, and mostly listened to it on mobile phone videos.

On May 20th, Yu Qiu arrived on time, without a mask and peaked cap. He was not worried that someone would recognize him.

The venue was bright, but Xuan Yun never showed up, the lights went out, and the chasing lights came to the stage above.

Yu Qiu was surrounded by screams. 

When Xuan Yun appeared, Yu Qiu burst out laughing. He didn’t know why he was laughing, but he just felt ordinarily happy. He saw Xuan Yun looking at his direction.

He dyed his hair silvery white which was consistent with harmony. He was wearing exquisite make up, which brought a perfect sense of amorousness.

He had never seen Xuan Yun like this-on the stage, so dazzling.

Like a star.

A few years ago, Xuan Yun debuted alone– Yu Qiu knew how muddy the water in the entertainment industry was, and he knew that Xuan Yu had to go to bed very late at night. He would suffer from insomnia because of anxiety, would be annoyed by cyber violence, would suffer from fans’ anger. Excited for a compliment, and even showed it to him, like a child begging for praise.

How many years have passed?

Three years? Or five years? Xuan Yun slowly got what he wanted, cheers, and love.

He ushered in his own spotlight and microphone.

Xuan Yun blinked at him lightly, causing the fans there to scream. Yu Qiu still had a rose in his pocket, even though he knew that people on the stage couldn’t see him.

The concert lasted for two hours and forty-three minutes. Yu Qiu kept looking at the stage, looking at Xuan Yun, with a deep and indelible love in his heart, like sugary water, also like spring water, but it felt soft.

At the end of the concert, the accompaniment stopped, and Xuan Yun wore a headset, with sweat on his forehead, walked to the side of stage, propped himself up on the ground and sat down.

The fans below were restless, the security guards maintained order, and Yu Qiu was sitting opposite him.

“This is my first concert. I have imagined countless times what it would be like to hold a concert.” Xuan Yun pointed to the venue above.

His breathing was unsteady and tired, but his eyes were bright. 

“I must have a very large venue, with many people, the best back up dancer, great musical instrument, no matter whether it is night or day, three days and three nights of happiness are necessary. Now I think I was too naive. Three days, worn out.”

Sparse laughter came from below, and Xuan Yun also smiled.

Yu Qiu didn’t smile.

What Xuan Yun said was the truth, he could tell that every word was his dream.

“I want a lot, here are some. Besides these big wishes, I also have small wishes, which was came true today,” Xuan Yun said suddenly, his eyes rolled up.

“I want to sing to my sweetheart.”

Yu Qiu’s heart moved, facing Xuan Yun’s eyes, suddenly a silver-white light hit him. Yu Qiu subconsciously raised his hand to cover his eyes, and put it down after he got used to it. He saw Xuan Yun jump off the stage, walking towards him step by step.

In the venue. Yu Qiu place was the only light, and Xuan Yun only needed to look for the light to find him.

The audience did not scream, but was very quiet, watching them silently.

When Xuan Yun came out of the closet, to be honest, he lost a lot of fans. Yu Qiu didn’t hear him complain. But Xuan Yun never regretted it, instead once again he still wanted to declare that Yu Qiu was the person he liked and his boyfriend.

Over time, people’s acceptance seemed to be higher. Almost everyone knew that Xuan Yun, who sang very well, had a boyfriend who wrote novels named Yu Qiu. Qiu for the Autumn.

 “I haven’t seen you for a long time,” Xuan Yun bent down, unexpectedly without saying anything fancy instead hugged Yu Qiu neck, rubbing his shoulder like a child, “I miss you so much,”

Indistinct, like talking in sleep. Through the headset, everyone could hear Xuan Yun’s words.

Yu Qiu slowly hugged him back, and after they hugged under the eyes of thousands of people.

“There were so many people watching, well, I miss you too.” Yu Qiu said softly.

Not public figures, they were just ordinary lovers at this moment.

Xuan Yun hugged for a long time, an intimate hug, so close to feel temperature, sense of security and indulgence. But, no one made a noise to interrupted them. 

He let go of Yu Qiu, someone could see the red corners of his eyes, and his makeup was a bit smudged. Xuan Yun laughed and said to himself, “I’m like this at home, like a koala, i really can’t bear it. Just hang on to him everyday”.

He looked at Yu Qiu again and said with a smiled. “You know, when I was on stage, I didn’t want to do it, several times. I just want to come down and hug you. Obviously you are in the audience, and we are so close but I can’t hug you,”

Yu Qiu’s adam apple twitched. In fact, Xuan Yun seldom said such a heart felt words. He was better at covering up the past with laughter. Probably the emotion was fermented by longing, and Xuan Yun was finally willing to say something to complain.

“Actually, I have a question that I want to ask you.” Xuan Yun said.

Yu Qiu stood up, look at him, and said with smile. “You ask.”

“Am I amazing?” Xuan Yun moved closer and burst out laughing.

The audience also laughed.

Yu Qiu chuckled and coaxing him, said,”My Yunyun is the best”.

“Okay, don’t even look!” Xuan Yun looked around, “Cover your eyes, don’t look!”

Yu Qiu kept laughing, took initiative to hook his chin, and kissed him lightly.

With a sound of booing, the band also booed and played music, only piano instrument, the song played when Yu Qiu and him kissed for the first time.

In this year, Yu Qiu was twenty-nine, Xuan Yun was twenty-seven. They had been in love for seven years, thousands of days, they had seen gossip, they had fantasized about love affairs, everything seemed to be a replay, a reflection, until the rainy night when they first met, Xuan Yun, who was wearing flip-flops, saw him in panic, blocked the pouring umbrella, and asked him where he lived.

Yu Qiu used to be his belief, but the fall of his belief gave him a chance to pick up the stars.

They were each other’s star.

Yu Qiu wore a rose from his lover and kissed his star.

“I love you.”

“I love you too.”

In the days to come, spring and snow, they will all be together.