Gu Jiqing got angry for the first time in his life.
Because he didn’t know why he was unhappy because of the childhood sweetheart meimei at that time and why he suddenly felt relieved when he found out it was his cousin.
He felt very confused.
He also finds Zhou Cibai very inexplicable.
Moreover, Zhou Cibai had become the most difficult person to communicate with in his life.
He bit Zhou Cibai angrily, and Zhou Cibai grinned foolishly.
He pushed Zhou Cibai away angrily, and Zhou Cibai smiled foolishly.
He sat on the sofa, reading a book, while Zhou Cibai looked at him and smiled foolishly.
He went back to his room to play computer games, and Zhou Cibai was still beside him, looking at him with a silly smile.
What in the world was there to be so happy as to giggle about when he snapped at him?
Gu Jiqing couldn’t understand it at all.
It’s not like he hasn’t met stupid people before. Such as Gu Jue, and his attitude towards dealing with them is to just give in to Gu Jue in everything.
And it’s also not like he hasn’t encountered unreasonable people before. Such as He Changzhi, but he just dealt with them calmly and ruthlessly.
But Zhou Cibai is stupid and unreasonable and has a surprisingly good temper. No matter what he does or uses ten thousand ways to apologize ten thousand times, he won’t get angry.
Gu Jiqing, who was not that angry at first, became even more angry because of his silly smile.
“Zhou Zhou, get him out.”
Gu Jiqing was originally sitting in the living room reading a book, but Zhou Cibai sat next to him and stared at him with a silly grin, which made him unable to continue reading. He couldn’t pretend not to see it either, so he could only put the book down, go back to his room, and say these words to Zhou Zhou when he could no longer endure it.
Zhou Dagou was immediately chased out of the door by Zhou Xiao Gou with a grin on its face.
Zhou Dagou stood at the door consciously, looking at Gu Jiqing, who was playing games on the computer, and asked, “What are you playing?”
Gu Jiqing casually said, “Nine Swords.”
Zhou Cibai asked seriously again, “Is it fun?”
Gu Jiqing said, “It’s okay. PK leveling is a bit tiring, but raising the baby is cute.”
“Oh.” Zhou Cibai silently took note of it in his mind and asked, “Does your finger still hurt? If you’re injured, why don’t you stop playing games for now?”
It was just a cut that was slightly deeper than a broken skin, not as painful as Zhou Cibai’s bite.
Thinking of himself being held down and gnawed by a dog in the kitchen, Gu Jiqing held the mouse and said, “I think if you hadn’t held it in your mouth and licked it, it might have been healed already.”
“Oh.” Zhou Cibai responded guiltily and then said, “Then what do you want to eat tonight? I’ll make it.”
Gu Jiqing: “All is fine.”
“I washed your pajamas for you already.”
“Thank you.”
“Didn’t you say you have to go tutoring? When are you going?”
“At 7pm.”
“Then do you want me to take you there?”
“No need.”
“But I want to give you a ride.”
“But I want to take a nap.”
“Then I’ll sleep with you…”
Bang——
Seeing Zhou Cibai really taking off his clothes and shoes and preparing to come in, Gu Jiqing finally couldn’t stand it anymore and slammed the door, “Zhou Cibai, why are you so clingy?”
“Because dogs are originally clingy.”
Zhou Cibai was turned down, but he answered confidently outside the door.
Giving you the remark “Zhou Dagou,” so you become the real Zhou Dagou?!
Gu Jiqing was instantly overwhelmed with emotion and couldn’t help asking, “Zhou Cibai, you won’t be angry?”
“Why should I be angry?”
Zhou Cibai asked back innocently and puzzled.
Gu Jiqing: “……”
Why isn’t Zhou Cibai angry?
Why wasn’t Zhou Cibai angry when he was so unreasonable, mean to him, bit him, snapped at him, wasn’t nice to him, and didn’t give in to him or coax him?
Zhou Cibai stood outside the door and said, “So are you still angry? I have already severely criticized Lu Ping and Su Yuebai. If you are still angry, I will ask them to apologize to you one more time.”
“I’m not mad at them.”
Gu Jiqing held the door handle, lowered his eyelashes, and whispered.
He is telling the truth.
He was indeed not angry with Lu Ping and Su Yuebai. They had both apologized to him very sincerely. Lu Ping even gave him a bunch of skins out of guilt. Zhou Cibai’s cousin even sent him several photos of Zhou Cibai in a stroller to cheer him up.
Moreover, this kind of thing itself has never aroused his concern or emotion.
Because even though Gu Jue was so stupid and He Changzhi was so bad, he had never really been angry, not to mention that this was just a well-intentioned joke and a simple misunderstanding.
So he was actually angry with himself.
He didn’t quite understand why he suddenly lost control of himself because of a few words from a little girl, and got angry at Zhou Cibai. Moreover, he even became even more angry, not knowing when to stop.
He chose to have a regular bed partner relationship with Zhou Cibai because he liked the feeling of Zhou Cibai’s strong aggressiveness that made him lose control temporarily.
But he didn’t like losing control of his emotions beyond that.
But he seemed to be acting unscrupulously because the other party was Zhou Cibai.
He shouldn’t be like this.
Gu Jiqing loosened the hand that was holding the door handle, turned around and walked back to his seat, sat cross-legged on the gaming chair, and continued to raise the cute little animal in the game.
Zhou Cibai heard his movements and asked expectantly, “Can I come in?”
Gu Jiqing let out an “En” and didn’t say anything.
Zhou Cibai opened the door and walked in. He didn’t bother him, but just sat on the chair behind him, watched for a while, and asked, “Do you like playing this game?”
“Still okay.”
Gu Jiqing is a lazy person by nature, so unless invited by friends, he doesn’t like games that are too competitive. Most of the time, he likes to stay at home alone and play less intense games.
Like the online game he is playing now, he often plays it when he has nothing to do because the life system is very comprehensive and the pets are very cute.
It’s just that they need to fight for equipment to catch a spirit pet, which is a bit troublesome.
Gu Jiqing was bored and was farming in the high-level dungeon, as if this could help him avoid thinking about some things. He didn’t care what Zhou Cibai was doing behind him.
The clanging noise only lasted for a short while, and then things soon quieted down behind them.
The sunlight changed from pale white in the afternoon to dim yellow and then to dark over time. The snow in the evening fell outside the window.
Zhou Zhou lazily lay at Gu Jiqing’s feet and yawned.
Gu Jiqing felt a little hungry and stood up to go to the kitchen to get something to eat, but Zhou Cibai suddenly turned around and tried to block the canvas behind him with his broad shoulders.
Gu Jiqing raised his eyebrows slightly.
Zhou Cibai: “……”
After a brief eye contact, Zhou Cibai gave in unconditionally.
He moved aside, revealing a little orange cat lying lazily on the canvas and a big white dog beside it, wagging its tail and sticking out its tongue, trying to block the sun for it. There was also a can of meat in front of the kitten.
Gu Jiqing: “……”
At first, he didn’t quite understand why Zhou Cibai painted this.
Zhou Cibai said a little embarrassedly, “Didn’t you want to redraw the couple’s portraits? I just want to draw it, so you can be happier.”
As a result, before he could even finish the painting, he was caught by Gu Jiqing.
Gu Jiqing looked at the cute little orange cat and the honest big white dog and asked, “You can draw?”
Zhou Cibai nodded, “I learned it for a while before.”
“Then why did you change my little gray cat into an orange cat?” Gu Jiqing’s calm tone of inquiry was like a class teacher randomly checking questions, and no emotion could be seen.
Zhou Cibai could only answer honestly: “Because I think the little gray cat’s color is not pretty enough, you are more suitable for a better-looking color.”
“Then why is it orange?”
“Because you are so thin, I think this color has a better meaning.”
“So you think I’m too thin?”
“Ah?” Zhou Cibai didn’t follow Gu Jiqing’s logic for a moment. He just looked at his calm expression, afraid that he had misunderstood something, and said hurriedly, “I didn’t. I just hope that you can be in better health. I…”
Seeing Zhou Cibai’s helpless and clumsy explanation, Gu Jiqing finally couldn’t help again: “Zhou Cibai, it’s obviously me who is being unreasonable, why aren’t you angry?!”
Zhou Cibai paused, then said seriously, “Because I don’t think you are being reasonable.”
All of Gu Jiqing’s emotions were blocked in his chest at that moment.
He couldn’t describe what emotion he was feeling, nor did he know how to express or vent it. He could only look at Zhou Cibai in silence for three minutes, and then, as usual, he chose to put on his coat silently and calmly, then went out.
He didn’t know where he should go, but he just felt that he couldn’t stay with Zhou Cibai anymore, and he wanted to escape from something.
However, when he arrived at the gate of the community, he remembered that he was not wearing a sweater, socks, scarf, keys, or even a cell phone.
The snow fell like this, bringing with it a chill.
An old man outside the community was selling sweet potatoes. The sweet steam was warming up the air, but he had no money and could only feel his hands and feet starting to ache from the cold.
He suddenly remembered that many years ago, when he was still very young. It was also a winter like this. He, who was in the second grade, had to wait for Gu Jue, who was in the sixth grade, to go home after school. There was an old lady selling delicious sweet potatoes at the school gate.
He waited for a long time and wanted to wait until the adults came to pick them up and ask them if they could buy him a baked sweet potato.
But that day, Gu Jue ranked third in the class, and the adults happily took Gu Jue to eat steak, and he didn’t end up eating the baked sweet potato.
Maybe this is the right thing to do.
Even if he is a cat, he should be a cat that knows how to advance and retreat, how to be alone, and how to survive alone in the cold winter.
Instead of a little orange cat that can lazily wait to be fed and fattened.
He took a deep breath, and all his calmness and rationality finally returned. He had already figured out how to face Zhou Cibai.
Then he turned around and was caught off guard by being tied up with a thick scarf.
Before he could react, he was also put in a woolen hat and wrapped in a giant down jacket with the zipper pulled up to his chin, burying half of his face.
The man who relied on his long arms and great strength to do these things with ease had already squatted down and put on his floor socks for him. “Why did you come out without wearing anything? What if you get sick from the cold?!”
This seemed to be the first time Zhou Cibai spoke to him in such a heavy and somewhat angry tone.
Gu Jiqing had been wrapped up so tightly that he had difficulty moving, and his mind was a little confused.
He stood there, like a wrapped-up penguin, without moving.
Zhou Cibai quickly and skillfully put on floor socks for him and said anxiously, “I’m sorry, I know I was wrong today, it’s my fault, I shouldn’t have made you unhappy, I promise that this won’t happen again, and no one will force you anymore, if you don’t like me sticking to you, I won’t stick to you, if you don’t like the little orange cat, I’ll just draw a little gray cat, if you want to be alone, just be alone, you just need to do what you want, okay?”
His words were full of panic and uneasiness, as if Gu Jiqing were such a precious treasure in his eyes.
But what kind of treasure is he?
He is just a selfish escapee.
Gu Jiqing is not a fool. Even though he has avoided it countless times, how could he not see why Lu Ping and the girl suddenly behaved in such a strange way, and how could he not see the reasons why Zhou Cibai was happy and panicked?
But he is not a very good person.
He does not have Zhou Cibai’s bravery, enthusiasm, and frankness.
He was also afraid of loss and all the disappointments.
He said softly, “Zhou Cibai, don’t be like this.”
Zhou Cibai raised his head.
Gu Jiqing said, “Because I will get used to it.”
In that moment, the wind and snow filled the air, and the warm blanket that covered the lawn was finally rolled up in a corner hastily.
Zhou Cibai seemed to understand what Gu Jiqing had understood.
He stood up in a panic and said, “Then you can get used to it.”
Before Gu Jiqing could say anything else, Zhou Cibai spoke up: “Gu Jiqing, I know what you are afraid of, and I also know what you are avoiding. I won’t force you, nor will I ask you, but I just want to tell you that if there is someone who loves you, it must be because your very existence is worthy of his love for you. He will definitely have a lot of love—so much love that you don’t need to do anything, don’t need to give anything, don’t need to sacrifice anything—so much that he only hopes that you can learn to love yourself first. Gu Jiqing, there must be such a person.”
Even if that person might not be him.
Even though Gu Jiqing might leave him today.
But he still wanted to tell Gu Jiqing that there must be such love in this world.
“Gu Jiqing, that is not due to s*x, nor is it due to your dedication. It is just a lot of love—the kind of love that loves you for who you are. Do you understand?”
Zhou Cibai had imagined ten thousand ways of expressing his feelings to Gu Jiqing.
It could be when white doves were flying in front of a church, it could be when he was kissing Gu Jiqing at the seaside, or it could be when the violin sounded at a dinner he had carefully prepared.
It must be solemn, romantic, and ready for everything.
At least it was not like now. After a completely unexpected mistake, he hurriedly put on a single piece of clothing, and Gu Jiqing was wrapped like a penguin, standing together on the most ordinary street in Beijing. It was snowing, and there was only an old man selling sweet potatoes across the street.
Then, like a child who is afraid of missing out on his most beloved treasure, he clumsily and hurriedly reveals his feelings.
“Gu Jiqing, I don’t need your answer, nor do I need your love in return. I just want you to believe that you really deserve that kind of love.”
He stood in the snow, so tall, with such broad shoulders and such a straight nose, and he looked so handsome under the street light.
And his words were so firm that it seemed as if the wind and snow had stopped.
So at that moment, Gu Jiqing heard his own heartbeat, which shamefully missed a beat.
He thought to himself that Zhou Cibai must be a fool.
