(M) Chapter 34 – The First Remaining Problem
Novel Title: 跨越千万星辰 (Across Thousands of Stars)
Author：御小凡 (Yu Xiaofan)
Translator: K (@kin0monogatari)
Protagonists: 泽田纲吉 (Sawada Tsunayoshi -MC), 六道骸 (Rokudo Mukuro -ML)
*Please read at Novels Space.space, the original site of translation. TQ*
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⚠️*TRIGGER WARNING: Non-consensual sexual act. Readers’ discretion is advised.
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Mukuro did it twice more afterwards. In terms of physical stamina, Tsuna could not be compared to Mukuro. Mukuro was obviously a lot stronger than him. Tsuna wasn’t aware when he fell unconscious. But somewhere along the way, Tsuna woke up once. His consciousness was not fully clear.
He was moved from the bed to the bathroom. Steam filled the air around. Mukuro embraced him from behind. His legs were spread open as he cleaned him up slowly.
The sensation of the fingers stirring and probing inside his asshole wasn’t very distinct. But compared to that, the warm water from the bathtub that entered his intestines stimulated his nerves intensely.
He moved slightly. But was gently stopped by the person behind him. “Your stomach will hurt if we don’t clean up properly,” Mukuro said.
Listening to this, Tsuna’s brain processed it slowly. He was really exhausted now. Not to mention letting Mukuro help him take a bath, even Mukuro were to fuck him again, he wouldn’t have the energy to resist. He decided to completely surrender himself to the other party. He let his consciousness plunge into deep sleep once more.
The second time he woke up, it was already bright outside the window. Tsuna slowly opened his eyes. He felt a dull, continuous soreness in his joints and muscles. He even felt it in his neck.
But it was especially intense on his lower back. He didn’t even want to move his body at all.
Nothing felt right. Now he really wished someone could disassemble and reassemble his body for him.
“Are you awake?”
The bedroom door didn’t make a sound as it was opened. It must have been slightly opened all along. The not-so-thin carpet absorbed the sound of the footsteps. But Tsuna knew that Mukuro was walking over towards him.
“Do you want some water?”
Despite the momentary anger that made him want to punch the other person, it quickly subsided due to physical reasons. Tsuna didn’t respond directly. But he was still helped up by the other party. The movement involved his lower back so it caused him to hiss in pain. Water at just the right temperature was brought to his lips. As he gulped down the water, he realised how dry his throat was. After finishing the cup with a series of gulps, he finally felt a sense of awakening.
“I’ve already arranged for you to have time off.” Mukuro gently placed him back, explaining with a smile. He seemed to be in a good mood. “The congee has been ready for a while. Should I bring it over to you?”
Not bringing it up might be better. But as soon as food was mentioned, Tsuna’s stomach audibly responded, as expected. After all, he hadn’t eaten anything since last night. And he then engaged in quite intense activities. Not being hungry would have been strange. Tsuna remained silent for a moment before making a sound of agreement.
The congee was quickly brought over, with some seasoning and chopped vegetables. The aroma was irresistible. Tsuna’s stomach was growling as loud as tires screeching. Despite the excessive forwardness of having someone feed him, he urgently swallowed the food by himself. The fulfilling sensation not only comforted his stomach, but it seemed to spread throughout his body. After finishing three bowls of congee, Tsuna closed his eyes contentedly.
The corner of his mouth was wiped clean with a tissue. In all aspects, he was being taken care of thoroughly. Tsuna regained some strength so he finally turned his head slightly to look at Mukuro.
It was a gaze one would give to a stranger, emitting an aura that kept a distance between the two.
Mukuro’s eyebrows twitched as he saw Tsuna looking at him like that. But he didn’t back down. He tidied the things up on his own and his tone was still gentle. “Would you like another bowl?”
“You…” Tsuna’s voice was dry. He was surprised at how hoarse it sounded. He coughed a couple of times and was promptly given some water again.
Nonetheless, all this meticulous care afterward couldn’t overshadow what had happened. He continued to stare at Mukuro with that kind of gaze. “Are you just planning to pretend like nothing happened?”
“I don’t intend to do that.” Mukuro calmly replied without showing weakness. He maintained eye-contact with Tsuna. “I fucked the person I love. For me, this is a beautiful thing. After finally getting to this point with you, do you think I would want to go back and continue treating you as just family?”
What an arrogant response. Tsuna’s eyebrows furrowed deeply. He almost shouted at the audacity of it all. “Mukuro Rokudo, have you lost your mind? What’s beautiful for you is a disaster for me!”
“A disaster?” Mukuro raised his voice and even smiled. His gaze roved over Tsuna’s body once. It was as if he was examining Tsuna’s body but also at the same time, he looked as if he was savouring something. “You clearly enjoyed it. You climaxed more than once last night, didn’t you?”
This statement successfully turned Tsuna beet red. It was undeniable that he had indeed experienced pleasure in that forced act. Mukuro’s gaze was intense and confident, leaving Tsuna no choice but to close his eyes frustratingly. He couldn’t quite put his feelings into words. But there was a mixture of bitterness, anger, and a touch of resentment. Even though he couldn’t pinpoint where this sense of resentment came from. Despite being already twenty-eight years old, he found it somewhat ridiculous to feel resentful. However, as he had said to himself, the overwhelming emotion was more akin to disappointment rather than anger.
Tsuna found it hard not to categorise Mukuro’s actions towards him as an insult. Regardless of gender, and even setting aside their relationship, such coercive behaviour was simply the worst way to disregard someone’s free will.
How did this child he raised turned into such a scum?
Reflecting on the past, he had never noticed this violent side of Mukuro. The Mukuro in his eyes, though difficult at times, was still a good child.
The truth of last night’s events hit him hard, distorting all good memories. It even felt like a betrayal. Even in the midst of forced intimacy, he had derived pleasure from it, reaching the point of near-unconsciousness several times. The fact that Mukuro had manipulated him in such a way made Tsuna recoil in pain and disgust. He couldn’t help but wonder what had gone wrong in him raising this child.
After giving a hoarse laugh, Reborn spoke a few words and generously granted a two-day leave for him. Even though the last words before hanging up the phone were, “Since you have the courage to take leave, you should also have the responsibility to make up for it.”
In view of this, Tsuna didn’t dare to ask for more days off. Besides, his current body is not that difficult to move. In fact, he can move freely the next evening after the first night. But it’s just uncomfortable. After all, Mukuro did not torment him to death. But the asshole is not a place to bear the desire of a man. No matter how much preparation was done, it will still hurt for the first time. Regarding the matter of administering medicine to Tsuna, Mukuro was very generous. He was saying that if Tsuna wanted to, he could administer the medicine by himself. Of course he would be happy if he needed his help.
It’s very troublesome to apply the medicine by himself. But Tsuna’s brain is trapped by what had happened. He closed the door and would not let that guy touch his asshole again. He laid on the bed and stretched his hands back to apply the anti-inflammatory ointment on himself. After cooling down, he felt greasy and uncomfortable. This kind of thing can’t be bothered anymore. Tsuna put on his pants, sat on the bed and thought for a while.
He should have figured it out a long time ago. All the way from Mukuro’s unfriendly attitude towards Uni and Kyoko. It was really a steady step by step he took to approach him. There was no such nonsense of mutual love or affection.
Tsuna wanted to look up to the sky and sigh. But the more he thought about it, the more he felt that his anger was about to explode.
Then he stood up and got dressed. He packed his things.
His movement made a loud sound. He did not try to cover up the movement. Mukuro came in quickly. Seeing Tsuna packing his luggage, he neither said anything to stop him nor stepped forward to help. He just leaned against the door with no expression on his face. He watched Tsuna move around with his arms crossed.
It’s still the same luggage. It was medium in size, not particularly large in capacity. It took Tsuna about half an hour to tidy up. He stuffed a few pieces of clothes. They were mainly suits and documents, which are necessary for going to work. The other things are identity documents and bank cards, which are necessary. After checking his things again, Tsuna dragged the luggage out.
“Where are you going?” At this moment, Mukuro spoke. Whenever he heard him speak, Tsuna wanted to scold him. But he was not good at this kind of thing since he was a child. So he could only keep his mouth shut.
When passing by the door, Mukuro grabbed Tsuna’s arm. His tone was rude despite a normal chat tone, “Do you think I will let you go just like that?”
You fucking arrogant ass!
Rationality made a sound of being torn apart. To hell with him if he is ignorant. To hell with him if he is prudent as an adult! This is unbearable. Tsuna turned his anger into action. With an angry face and gritted teeth, he lifted his foot sideways and kicked Mukuro’s calf from the front. Mukuro probably never thought that Tsuna would attack him. He was always so agile that it would often cause his opponents to end up in despair. But this time, he didn’t manage to block the attack at all.
There is no muscle protection on the front side of the bone of the calf. So the bone bears 100% of the force.
This kick was fast and ruthless. Mukuro had already bent down and hugged his calf before he realised where the pain came from. He screamed in pain. Tsuna was shaking his legs beside him, with a fierce expression, “Mukuro, those who do that to others are scums.”
After finishing speaking, he rushed out of the house with a grim face. His current thoughts were in a mess. He found a nearby hotel to stay in. He paid a ten-day prepayment and booked a single room for himself.
What should I do next? He wondered.
What he was struggling with, of course, did not refer to himself. But it was regarding Mukuro. As a man, he is not so harsh on the concept of virginity. Whether he was bitten by a dog or beaten up severely, being raped will not make Tsuna die. Even when this kind of thing leads to a nervous breakdown, he of course couldn’t go to the police.
After all, he didn’t seem to have done anything to punish the kid himself. Tsuna felt very aggrieved.
The only thing that is certain is that when facing Mukuro, Tsuna can’t go back to the past as if nothing had happened.
What puzzled him was that Mukuro didn’t want to go back either.
Ahh! After doing such an unforgivable thing, he still justified his action. He’s really amazing!
Tsuna dragged Mukuro’s phone number into the blacklist without any hesitation. Tsuna tidied up his things angrily. He hung the suits one by one in the wardrobe. He called the front desk and asked for pasta for dinner. It may be that he was more hungry after being emotionally exhausted. He ate up the mediocre-taste dishes hungrily.
Tsuna was angry again while taking a bath before going to bed. Only when he faced the mirror did he realise how… ‘passionate’ Mukuro was with him that night.
Not to mention the hickey on the neck. The marks went all the way down to the shoulder. Is that guy a dog? Tsuna can see bruises on his collarbone. They looked more like scars than hickeys.
Tsuna never knew how fair his skin was. But with these traces, even he felt that his appearance looked full of eroticism.
He threw his towel onto the mirror. It made a ‘cling’ sound. Now he has an urge to rush home to beat Mukuro up.
How can I go out to see people?! How can I go out to see people!? Putting on bandaids will definitely not cover these up. Does he want me to go out wearing bandages?!
He clenched and loosened his fists. Tsuna picked up another towel and soaked it in cold water in the sink. He wiped his face and calmed himself down a little. He glanced at himself in the mirror again and twitched the corners of his mouth stiffly.
Tsuna went to a department store on the last day of the two-day vacation given by Reborn. He bought the most effective concealer to cover his hickeys and bruises. The sales lady explained to him over and over again that it was not suitable to give it to his girlfriend. She said it would look thick and unnatural. This kind of patient explanation could only make Tsuna’s heart ache all over again.
In addition to the anti-inflammatory medicine bought in the pharmacy, Tsuna, who had a bag full of things, walked towards the hotel while thinking about where to get himself another house to let things cool down between them. This brat will go to college in a short time. By then, he will go as far as he can.
Back at the hotel, Tsuna went online and looked at the inbox of his work email to check some work he had missed. He didn’t forget that he would become a conscientious office worker again by tomorrow morning.
After all, no matter what happens in his life, he must continue to live as if nothing had happened to survive.
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*Author’s Note:
[This is the interview afterwards, but it’s still awkward.]
Author: Ahem, when something like this happens, of course it’s nice… Ahem, Mukuro, please don’t glare at me. When something like this happens, it’s naturally something nobody wants to happen. [Serious face] Since the two of you won’t be communicating for a while, is there anything you want me to pass on to the other?
Mukuro: Get lost.
Author: Alright, alright. [Turns away] Um, Tsuna-kun… Tsuna, could you please mind your appearance and not curl up in a corner?
P/S: Tomorrow is Sunday. So there won’t be an update. See you all next week. [Winking face]
Whining whining, I’m stuck with a writer’s block. [Falls]
-YXF
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Translator’s Note: I’m sorry if these past few chapters caused any discomfort. I had warned beforehand in the description of the novel that this scene will be written in the novel. Please proceed with caution. -K
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Next update: Tomorrow
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