The ward was very quiet, and a drop of a needle could be heard. As soon as Liang Suici saw that the visitor was Li Xi, he turned his head after a while, as if deliberately avoiding him.
Li Xi walked over and looked down at him for a while. His gaze fell on his obviously haggard face, and a suffocating pain spread uncontrollably in his heart.
Was it such a desperate thing to face all this alone? Was it because he was about to be unable to hold on that night that he looked at himself with such sad eyes…?
Before coming in, Li Xi actually wanted to ask him a lot of things, but the moment he saw him, he suddenly felt that there was no need. All resentment and unwillingness were so fragile in the face of life and death. It’s not worth mentioning. In fact, he always knew it, didn’t he? He loved this person and wanted to be with him… No matter how much he deceived himself…
The so-called revenge was just because he couldn’t let it go… It’s just an excuse for himself because he didn’t want to completely sever his relationship with him. Because he couldn’t let it go, he could only keep him by his side in this way…
Li Xi didn’t know how long he had been standing by the bed and watching. When the man’s breathing gradually became regular, he bent down and tucked his quilt up, and then dimmed the bedside lamp.
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Zhang Chengye was actually very surprised when he received the call in the middle of the night. After all, Li Xi rarely contacted him directly if he had nothing to do, especially so late.
He even felt that he had just drunk a glass of white wine before he heard it wrong, or that this was actually Li Xi’s fantasy.
That person was actually suffering from leukemia?
But what surprised Zhang Chengye even more was what Li Xi said next. This person actually began to feel that Liang Suici deliberately created the illusion of betraying him because he knew that he had leukemia and would not live long…
Although he had always known that his good friend was always confused when he encountered Liang Suici’s affairs, what he said this time was really outrageous!
“He told you that? Fuck me… I say, can you stop being so easily deceived? How do you know that he didn’t say that deliberately because he was worried that he had leukemia, had no money to treat it, and couldn’t find a bone marrow match…”
But the voice over there was almost choked, the language was also very chaotic, and the emotions seemed to be about to completely collapse. Zhang Chengye was speechless for a long time after listening to it, but then he sighed straight away.
Li Xi must have dug the ancestral grave of Liang Suici’s family in his previous life, and only in this life did he have to pay off his love debt. When the two of them were together before, they couldn’t get used to Li Xi being like a stupid dog who could only wag his tail when he saw Liang Suici. He didn’t expect it to be long. Not only did it return to the original state, but it also became worse!
“Okay, I’ll just check it for you. It’s not a big deal. Eh… don’t cry yet…” Zhang Chengye lit a cigarette and held it in his mouth, holding his forehead irritably to persuade, “I’m telling you, don’t cry in a hurry. First send his blood test report to the NMDP bone marrow bank, ah… It’s all delivered. That’s fine. Isn’t there a saying, good people don’t live long?… Um, no… you should be able to find a match soon… Think about what age it is, why would leukemia be so serious?”
After he hung up the phone, he was stunned for a while, and felt a little magical again. He thought to himself that he had really done something wrong. How could he make his love life look like a third-rate dog-blood idol drama every day?
Although there were only a few large hospitals in M City, there were many private hospitals and clinics, so it was very troublesome to check them one by one.
But fortunately, he had a wide range of contacts. It was now the era of information technology. No matter who had medical records, they would be recorded and backed up on the Internet. The specific period of time could be basically determined, and the scope had also been narrowed to the hematology department. So, to his surprise, the news from his side had just been sent. At six o’clock the next morning, before he woke up, he heard a prompt on his mobile phone. He woke up with a shock and found that there were a few more emails in the mailbox.
He clicked and took a rough look, but the more he looked at it, the more frightened he became, and even the only drowsiness left was gone.This email contained two blood test reports and bone marrow test sheets that Liang Suici did at Tzu Chi Hospital in November last year. The two test reports were done on the same day. Generally speaking, if the blood test report shows “blood three low”, then the doctor would recommend a further bone puncture to confirm the diagnosis. Obviously, there was immature cell count hyperplasia on his bone marrow puncture report sheet, and the NPA staining result was not normal… In other words, Liang Suici had secretly taken an examination before the divorce…
He originally said that Liang Suici would not really be able to do it like this… But he didn’t expect that he would really do it like this… But he only hesitated for a while, and Zhang Chengye finally sent the email to Li Xi.
He didn’t know if he would cry happily or completely collapse.
The more Zhang Chengye thought about it, the more he felt that his heart was congested, and his mood was so complicated that he couldn’t sit still… He quickly got up, washed his face and brushed his teeth, drove the car, and was about to go straight to the hospital, but after thinking about it, he turned around and went to a nearby flower shop to pick up a bunch of elegant orchids.
He also bought a luxurious fruit basket nearby. After all, he was visiting a patient…
He drove all the way to the hospital, and then went to find out the ward number. Then he went up with flowers and a fruit basket. The ward was on the 21st floor. Zhang Chengye actually called Li Xi before he arrived, but the other party did not answer.
Unlike the noise below, the 21st floor was very quiet, and even the pungent smell of disinfectant in the air was not very strong.
One or two nurses came and went with pallets, and Zhang Chengye followed one of them directly into the ward. But when he went in, he didn’t see Li Xi, only Liang Suici, who was sitting on the hospital bed with his head down and playing with his mobile phone.
Although he had known him before, he had never liked him, and because of the divorce with Li Xi at that time, the two of them were very stiff. Now that only the two of them get along alone like this, the atmosphere was a bit embarrassing.
Zhang Chengye walked over and put the bouquet in a glass vase on the bedside table, then stood aside and watched the nurse pack the brown pills and hand them to him.
The huge and heavy floor-to-ceiling curtains were opened, and the golden sunlight poured into the room. Zhang Chengye looked at his visibly thin and pale cheeks, and an indescribable feeling appeared in his heart, but for a while he didn’t know how to speak first.
“Are you here to find Li Xi?”
“Hmm,” Zhang Chengye thought to himself, probably.
“He’s not here, so if you have to wait, just do whatever you want.”
Only when the nurse pushed the stroller out of the door did Zhang Chengye see him open the quilt and make a gesture to get out of bed.
“Eh…where are you going?” Zhang Chengye was taken aback by his sudden movements, and subconsciously wanted to reach out to help him, but he just glanced at him strangely.
“Go to the toilet.”
Zhang Chengye retracted his hand in embarrassment and let him go to the bathroom by himself. He flipped through the magazines on the coffee table on the sofa outside the ward, and turned his head to find that Li Xi had opened the door and came in.
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Zhang Chengye asked the nurse for an ice pack, sat next to him and patted him on the shoulder, comforting, “…it’s not as scary as you think…”
Li Xi pressed his eyebrows, his elbows against his knees, and the pain from the bottom of his heart spread all the way to his mouth, making his hands tremble uncontrollably.
The two of them have been together for so long. Why did they turn a blind eye to the truth within reach, but believed in such a botched lie?
“Oh… who would have thought of it, but it’s not too late. Even if leukemia is treated conservatively, it can live for five to ten years…”
Before he could feel the body of the person next to him stiffen, Li Xi turned his face and showed a look of despair in his eyes.
Zhang Chengye was startled by his gaze, and then cursed himself as an idiot. Why did he talk about it?
In order to change the subject, Zhang Chengye pointed to the suitcase next to the sofa, “By the way, what is this?”
Li Xi wiped his face, “His clothes and daily necessities.”
Zhang Chengye looked at him as if he was out of his mind, and sighed, “Don’t panic. Discuss it with him, and persuade him to actively cooperate with the treatment as soon as possible, and stop procrastinating.”
Li Xi nodded tremblingly, “I’m going to see him.” He tried his best to calm down again, then stood up and opened the door and walked in.
Because the inner and outer rooms of the ward were soundproof, Li Xi opened the door to find that he was watching TV.
The morning sun was very plentiful, casting warm spots on the wooden floor.
Li Xi walked over, pulled a chair and sat down by the bed, looking at him quietly. Time flowed slowly, until the panic and uneasiness in his heart were gradually replaced by firmness.
“What are you looking at me for?” Liang Suici noticed his motionless gaze, turned his head and asked.
A look of pain flashed across Li Xi’s eyes, and then he folded his hands together and held them in his hands, whispering firmly, “Don’t be afraid, the doctor said that the current medical technology is very developed, and it can be cured.”
Liang Suici was startled and subconsciously wanted to take his hand out of his hand, “What are you talking about?”
“I know everything, you really don’t have to lie to me anymore…” Li Xi looked at him in such pain that he could hardly speak, as if all the air in his lungs had been taken away. He said word by word, “Do you really want me to show you the blood test report you did at Tzu Chi Hospital on November 5th?”
Liang Suici looked at Li Xi steadily, and then his lips shook heavily after a long time, “So what…what does this mean?”
Every word he uttered was very difficult, and he looked at Li Xi and repeated it again, “I am indeed…but so what…”
It seems that his mind was very chaotic, perhaps because of the instability of his blood pressure. His spirit is in an extremely sluggish state, subconsciously wanting to speak out, but he couldn’t find any reason or excuse for a while…
Li Xi looked at him in silence, then stood up and slowly hugged him into his arms, softly but firmly, “Don’t be afraid. I will find you the best doctor. These are not scary…”
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