“Like you said about bone marrow transplantation, in fact, if a successful match can be found in the chronic and accelerated stages, there is a chance of cure. Even if it develops to the acute stage, transplantation can be performed, but… Unfortunately, the appropriate transplantation period has been completely missed. In addition, the patient’s body functions have gradually developed symptoms of failure. At this time, the operation actually did not have much effect, it just deepened the patient’s pain…”
The doctor’s words were clear, but it was as if he hadn’t heard anything. Li Xi leaned back in the chair, his body so stiff that he couldn’t move, as if all his strength had been taken out.
A thick black mist gradually appeared in front of his eyes, and his mind was buzzing. Li Xiding looked at the doctor with difficulty and said, “Then what do you mean…how long can he live?”
Dr. Li looked at Li Xi’s reaction, and the doubts in his heart couldn’t be solved. He clearly cared about this patient in this way, and he looked like he had a lot of friendship, but if that’s the case, then why..?
However, as a doctor, he has no right to spy on other people’s private affairs, but he still can’t control the emotions of infinite regret. In the end, he just sighed for a long time and said honestly, “It’s estimated to be about a month.”
“One month…” Li Xi opened his mouth, as if he wanted to say something.
Dr. Li felt frightened, but saw Li Xi bend down abruptly, raised his hand and covered his eyes tightly.
“Mr. Li, are you uncomfortable?” Dr. Li was afraid that he would have an accident, so he immediately stepped forward and stretched out his hand to support him, and asked hesitatingly.
Li Xi shook his head, the hand holding the eyebrow bone was full of blue veins. It took a long time before he raised his head, his eyes were congested, and he looked at the doctor with an indescribable gaze, “Even if he is given the best medicine and the best medical conditions, won’t it work?”
Dr. Li choked, and then gave a wry smile after a while. “Mr. Li, if it were earlier, he would be really saved, but it’s too late now.”
In fact, the patient was completely dragged into such a situation. As a doctor, the last thing he wanted to see was this situation. He was obviously young and had a good life.
“But Mr. Li, let me take the liberty to ask, is that patient your friend?”
“This is not your business…“ Li Xi staggered to his feet and interrupted him, “You just need to do your best to heal him. I will send someone to deal with the cost tomorrow morning.”
After he finished speaking, he turned around and strode out of the office. Dr. Li watched him leave, shook his head, and muttered silently for a while—I really don’t understand rich people.
At the end of the dim and cold corridor was a balcony. There was a faint morning light shooting in from the window sill. The little nurse led Li Xi to the door of the intensive care unit. “Mr. Li, this is it. The patient has just finished the operation and is not awake yet.”
Through the transparent glass windows, in a dead silence, even the dripping sound of medical equipment inside could be heard. The sound seemed very cold and regular in the dim shadows.
The little nurse didn’t know their relationship, but the aura of Mr. Li next to her was too fierce and terrifying, so she didn’t dare to say anything extra.
“You just go and do your own thing.” Li Xi stood at the door for a while before speaking without turning his head.
The little nurse responded, then yawned and walked away.
Li Xi didn’t know how long he had been standing outside the ward before he took out his mobile phone again and read the short two-character text message over and over again.
What on earth did he want to say? Did he regret it? Did he regret what he did to him? Or is there anything else to say..?
Li Xi had no way of knowing.
All the strong love and hate seemed to become illusory at this moment, whether his love or hate, for a person who was about to die, it was insignificant at all.
Li Xi pressed his forehead against the cold glass window, and thought in a daze and confusion: Why didn’t he find the bone marrow match earlier? If he could find it earlier, he should still be able to survive.
Liang Fangyuan came to visit Chu Yan in the morning, but saw Li Xi asleep in a chair at the door of the ICU ward. She was surprised and patted the other person gently on the shoulder, “Young man, why are you asleep here?”
Li Xi woke up from a chaotic and misty nightmare, staring blankly at Liang Fangyuan for a long time before he recognized who she was.
There were still many similarities between Liang Fangyuan’s eyebrows and eyes, which makes it easy to think of the relationship between the two, not to mention that Li Xi has seen her photos.
It’s just that he didn’t expect their first meeting to be in this situation.
“I’m a friend of his… I only heard about this last night, I’m sorry.”
Liang Fangyuan looked a little surprised, showing a little happiness, “Well, thank you for coming to see him.”
After speaking, she turned her gaze to the ward again, looked at Chu Yan lying inside and said, “My younger brother has been a bit withdrawn since he was a child, and he is not good at interacting with people. You are the first friend to visit him. He should be very happy when he wakes up.”
“Really?” Li Xi smiled bitterly. He couldn’t tell the current relationship between the two. He’s afraid he’s not even a friend in his heart.
Then he shouldn’t be happy when he wakes up and sees himself…
“Hmm.” Liang Fangyuan turned to look at him. “But he usually wakes up in the afternoon. I think you should go back and rest now.”
Liang Fangyuan clearly saw that he came here overnight last night. There was a clear blue and blackness under his eyes, and his face was visibly haggard, and she was inevitably a little moved.
Does he usually wake up in the afternoon?
Li Xi’s heart suddenly tugged. He called himself when he was only awake, and he called for two days in a row, but he didn’t answer.
He choked for a moment, “Then I will see him again in the afternoon…”
——
Li Xi came over at 12:30 noon. Liang Fangyuan was not there when he came, and Chu Yan hadn’t woken up yet.
There were too many instruments in the ward, and Li Xi could only see the respirator that covered most of his face from an angle, as well as the hand on the bed sheet.
He waited at the door for a while, and then the vice president heard his visit and said carefully to him. “Mr. Li, do you want to arrange a room and wait? We will tell you when the patient inside wakes up.”
He still couldn’t figure out whether Mr. Li had a grudge or affection with the one inside, so he didn’t know what to do.
If there is affection, then the best medical resources are waiting for him, which can definitely give him the best hospitalization experience comparable to a five-star hotel. If there is hatred… then there is no need to do anything, anyway, the person is someone who stepped into the coffin with one foot.
“Just spend more time on him, don’t worry about me.”
With this sentence, the vice president understood it almost instantly, staring at Li Xi’s face as deep as water, and repeatedly said, “Don’t worry about this, we will try our best to treat every patient.”
Li Xi nodded, without any extra emotion on his face.
The vice president was also a discerning person. Knowing that he didn’t want to be disturbed, he left after a few polite words.
After waiting for more than two hours, a nurse came to tell him that Chu Yan was awake. After swiping the permission card, Li Xi was asked to change into sterile clothes and enter the ICU.
The surrounding temperature was a bit low, and Li Xi walked over only to find out how thin he had been in just two months, to the point where it was shocking.
On the hospital bed, Chu Yan slowly turned his head and stared at Li Xi for a while, as if he finally recognized him.
Li Xi stood in front of the bed and stared at him condescendingly, “When did it happen?”
Chu Yan watched him open his mouth, and a layer of white mist immediately covered the respirator. He raised his hand and took off his oxygen mask. His chest was slightly undulating, but his tone was extremely ordinary, “About a month ago, it’s ridiculous to think about it now…”
Li Xi’s eyes were quiet, and he saw him turn his gaze to himself again, gasping and saying, “You are here, do you have anything to say?”
He seemed extremely tired, and there was no blood on his lips. After waiting for a long time, he didn’t wait for Li Xi to speak before he smiled slightly, lowered his eyes lightly and said, “Forget it, it’s probably not a good thing. I don’t want to listen to it.”
That smile was extremely short-lived, and Li Xi was not even sure if it could be considered a smile. He originally thought that his heart was numb with pain, but at this moment, it seemed that a cold steel needle pierced the flesh and blood fiercely. It was a kind of pain that pierced the heart and bones. Almost all the air in the lungs was taken away, making people feel pain even between breaths.
Li Xi closed his eyes and then opened them again, his fists clenched his knuckles white, and it was a long time before he heard his difficult and dumb voice, “Live well…I just hope you…live well…”
But the words were too pale, and he only had this sentence left over and over again—Live well.
Only this thought was clearly left in the chaotic mind.
Chu Yan was taken aback for a moment, didn’t speak for a while, and then sighed for a long time. There’s a saying that dying people deserve good words. He felt that even a cannon fodder scum gong conform to this law. So he just nodded, “I see.”
Li Xi didn’t know why, he subconsciously opened his mouth and wanted to say something else, but saw that he had already closed his eyes.
Except for the medical staff, other people in the ICU can’t stay in the ICU for a long time. Li Xi was able to enter the hospital and broke this case for him. After staying for about half an hour, he was invited out by the nurse.
Li Xi watched the nurse put the oxygen mask on him again, and said anxiously, “You can’t take it off by yourself next time. It’s very dangerous, you know?”
Since then, Li Xi has come to see him every afternoon, but Chu Yan has less and less time to wake up. Even when he wakes up, Li Xi sits next to him and rarely speaks again.
Every time Liang Fangyuan came over, she could see Li Xi leaning against the door of the intensive care unit, his gaze making people look unspeakably uncomfortable.
“Don’t be sad, I think he doesn’t want to see a good friend like you sad for him.” Liang Fangyuan had accepted this fact a long time ago, only to feel that Li Xi might not be able to accept the news at first glance, so sometimes she couldn’t help but comfort him.
Seeing her brother in pain, sometimes she would give birth to the thought of just ending it since there’s no hope anymore. After all, it would be less painful and sinful.
Li Xi shook his head, his nose was sore, and his emotions seemed to be uncontrollable. He suddenly got up, turned around, and went to the bathroom.
He took a glass of water, looked up at his red eyes in the mirror, and did not go back immediately, but stayed on the balcony for a while.
Here at the end of the corridor, the sunlight passes through the broad-leaved trees in the window, casting mottled shadows on the floor, so quiet that even the sound of the leaves whisking can be heard clearly.
Footsteps came from afar, and two people were talking in a low voice.
“What do you think the patient in Ward 416 has to do with Mr. Li? I can’t understand it now. Do you know? Mr. Li comes every day, and he comes every afternoon.”
“It doesn’t make any sense. I feel sorry for that patient. He looks so good and young…”
“Yeah, he’s really good-looking. It’s a pity, it’s a pity. I originally thought that even if it didn’t work that time, he could wait for the next match, but I didn’t expect him to suddenly be infected.”
Li Xi was just listening casually. When he heard this, his heart beat violently unconsciously, and his body tightened subconsciously.
“Isn’t leukemia like this? Some people who live a long time can live for more than ten years. Let’s not talk about unlucky people like this… Who knows that missing it once is tantamount to missing it forever.”
“I can’t figure out what rich people like them think, I really can’t guess…”
Ding—
The elevator door opened suddenly, and footsteps sounded, isolating all the voices of the people.
There was a dead silence in the corridor again.
After Li Xi finished listening, his head was blank, and he was stunned for several seconds before he reacted. The nerves in his head were beating abruptly. He moved a step, but his knees bent softly and he staggered. He hurriedly reached out and grabbed the edge of the window before barely stabilizing his body.
His eardrums buzzed for a while, then he remembered something and strode towards the director’s office.
Dr. Li was reading the information in the ward, and suddenly a nurse came in and whispered a few words to him. Before he finished speaking, the door slammed open.
“Mr. Li…” As soon as he called, he was frightened by Li Xi’s appearance and shivered.
Li Xi looked at the doctor steadily, his originally indifferent expression was like a mixture of ice ballast, his expression looked extremely tyrannical, and he asked, “Is there a suitable match?”
Before Dr. Li could answer, he continued to ask, “Then why didn’t you arrange the operation for him in the first place? You told me that you had missed the best transplant period, but obviously you could arrange the operation when the bone marrow match appeared. Deliberately delaying the condition is simply the responsibility of your hospital!”
Dr. Li was shocked when he heard his accusation, and he hesitated for a long time before carefully saying, “At that time, we…didn’t know that he was your friend, Mr. Li, otherwise…”
“Don’t know?” Li Xi sneered, and took a step forward and grabbed his collar fiercely, “This is the attitude of your hospital towards patients? Are you so righteous in disregarding human life?”
His voice seemed to be squeezed out of his throat, and his gritted teeth were trembling, “Okay… just wait for the lawsuit and be put in the bottom of the prison!”
The little nurse next to them was so scared that she took a few steps back again and again, leaning against the corner of the wall, not daring to make a sound, but not daring to go out.
Dr. Li was sweating profusely on his back, and he didn’t dare to resist when he was restrained by him. He took a breath of air conditioning and said tremblingly, “No, Mr. Li, I think you have misunderstood. It’s not that we don’t operate on patients… It’s that the donor who successfully matched the type temporarily regretted it. In this case, our hospital can’t do anything…”
“Temporary regret?” Li Xi choked his breath, and repeated the question in a low voice.
“Yes, this is completely the freedom of the donor, but our hospital has also worked hard for a long time. It was really that the donor’s requirements were too harsh and rude at that time… He said it would take five million to donate… We originally thought that there would be a new match after a while…so…”
Who knew that this Mr. Li would come to him to inquire about this. Had he known this before, he should have done everything possible to fight for it once.
“We treat the life of every patient very carefully, Mr. Li, you really misunderstood…”
Li Xi froze almost immediately. Between the electric light and the flint, a terrifying thought suddenly flashed through his mind, and his heart suddenly stopped beating for half a beat unconsciously. Layers of paralysis spread from the depths of his brain. He tried to suppress the beating nerve endings, trying his best to control his trembling jaw, and asked, “Did what you said happen around the 13th of this month?”
“Wait…” Dr. Li’s brain was so scared that he was a little unclear. Although he didn’t know the reason, he still looked for the medical records on the table and turned to Chu Yan and the Chinese-American HLA matching report, dated March 10th, and then nodded. “The donor made this request on the third day after the successful matching, probably on the morning of March 13th.”
Dr. Li looked at Li Xi, sweating constantly on his forehead. If Li Xi really wants to sue, he’s afraid he’s really screwed…
Li Xi kept looking at him, and it took a long time before he understood what he was saying. He took the matching report from his hand and read it over and over again, and then he glanced up at Dr. Li, who was still holding a tissue and couldn’t help wiping his sweat.
Suddenly, he opened his mouth, moved his lips, and smiled silently.
No matter what he thought, he couldn’t think of it… It turned out to be a call for help.
He had been guessing what the person was going to say when he called him, but he never thought it was like this.
He called himself immediately, that is to say, as long as he saw it, he could be saved… Because for him, it couldn’t be simpler.
Smiling and laughing, his tears came down. “It turned out to be like this…”
As long as he answered that call that day, or answered that call the next day, even if it was the third day, he could still see that text message… But what was he doing in those few days?
“Mr. Li, what’s wrong with you?”
Li Xi shook his head, his teeth gritted to death, the blue veins between his foreheads were exposed, and his eyes were red and he staggered two steps against the table.
Dr. Li stepped forward to help him, but was pushed away.
The whole world was spinning around, it was a feeling of being submerged to suffocation, as if a flood was surging from all directions. Li Xi choked sharply a few times, suddenly bent down abruptly, holding the table and began to retch violently.
It turned out that he was begging himself to save him…
“Mr. Li—”
“Mr. Li—”
—
Li Xi didn’t show up again for a week, and Chu Yan was finally able to confirm that his task had been completed.
The 1551 system basked in the sun on the window sill, and once again couldn’t help but urge: [Master host, the tasks in this world have been completed, let’s hurry up and go to the next one.］
Chu Yan sighed: [Well, it’s completely cured anyway.］
This semi-lethargic state lasted for about three more days, and finally after another high fever and emergency rescue, the hospital issued a critical illness notice to the relatives.
Although they knew that this day would not be too far away, when it came, Li Xi and Liang Fangyuan were caught off guard.
On the day he was transferred to the general ward, Chu Yan was even allowed to watch TV for a while, which happened to be the world’s top variety show.
[So handsome, this look is really the standard for romance’s male protagonists.] 1551 said, its face was almost posted on the screen.
Chu Yan ignored him, talked to Liang Fangyuan who was guarding the hospital bed for a while, and then couldn’t help falling asleep. His doctor’s orders and property certificates were ready, and he was ready to leave the world at any time.
Li Xi came over that night. The ward was very quiet and dark. Only a small light was on at the head of the bed, and the red indicator light flickered slightly from time to time on the medical equipment on the side.
He sat quietly for a while before slowly holding one of Chu Yan’s hands, and then bowed his head and kissed it very lightly and religiously.
He opened and closed his lips, unable to make a sound: Are you blaming me?
All that responded to him was a dead silence. Li Xi rubbed his eyes, and finally lowered his head and pressed his forehead tightly against the back of Chu Yan’s hand, motionless for a long time.
He didn’t know how long this posture has been maintained, but the monitoring instrument on the side flickered twice, and the curves with different frequencies suddenly fluctuated in a messy manner, and then a straight line without a trace of fluctuation was drawn silently.
At the same time, messy and noisy footsteps sounded in the corridor, the ward was pushed open, and doctors and nurses rushed in together and surrounded the hospital bed.
“Doctor, the patient’s heart stopped, his pulse stopped—”
“Chest compressions—”
——
Five years later, Li’s company held a general meeting of shareholders, and Li Xi donated all his shares to the Leukemia Foundation.
Regarding Li Xi, the media only knows that he has a gay lover and an adopted son who has studied finance in Country F since he was a child. His lover is well protected and has never appeared in public. The media is very curious about his move. For a while, there were different opinions and speculations about his decision.
In March, the weather and rain gradually increased, and spring was in full swing. The trees in the suburban cemetery were washed away by the rain, and they looked green and lush.
Li Xi was wearing a black suit with a black veil on his arms. The years dyed the hair on his sideburns white. His gaze fell on the photo on the tombstone for a while, then he slowly squatted down, took out his handkerchief from his pocket and gently wiped it clean.
He was silent for a while before slowly speaking, “I…seem to have been telling you I’m sorry all these years.”
After saying this, he paused for a moment, looked at the still young face in the photo, pressed his forehead against the cold and hard tombstone, and then smiled slightly, but his tone was a bit melancholy, “But I don’t want to talk about it this year.”
Li Xi gently rubbed the tone tablet again, “In fact, no matter what I say, you should not hear it anymore.”
The surroundings were quiet, only the breeze gently whisked the leaves and made a subtle sound.
“Suici.” Li Xi whispered and cautiously, “I love you…”
It seemed that he noticed that his voice was too soft. He hesitated for a while, afraid that the other party might really not hear him, before repeating in a murmur, “I love you…”
He sat in front of the tomb for a while and said something. Until it was dark, he got up and left.
Five years later, Li Xi died at P City Villa at the age of 39.
—Cannon Fodder Ending is over.
