How could such a thing happen in the world?!
At that moment, Zhou Cibai couldn’t describe his emotions.
If Gu Jiqing is really his goddess, it at least indicates that his previous entanglement is meaningless. He no longer has to painfully choose between the two, which is a good thing.
But how could Gu Jiqing be his goddess?
He has been having homophobia for so many years, but the first person he falls in love with is a boy?
And he even fell in love with the same boy after four or five years too?
F*ck.
Zhou Cibai was truly unable to say what exactly he was feeling.
Especially when he thought about how righteous he used to express his deep feelings towards the Gu Jiqing a few years ago in front of the current Gu Jiqing just to reject the Gu Jiqing now. Zhou Cibai felt both embarrassed and regretful, wishing he could be buried in a hole in the ground.
But inside, there was another kind of excitement and luck that he couldn’t even express.
It’s like after so many years, they no longer know each other, but he is still attracted to Gu Jiqing, and Gu Jiqing has also fallen in love with him.
This type of destined and unknown mutual affection made him unable to help but feel his heart pound.
But how could he have treated Gu Jiqing that way before?
So much so that he doesn’t even know how to confess to Gu Jiqing now.
If he were to say that he thought Gu Jiqing looked like his goddess and that’s why he ran away so many times, would Gu Jiqing think that he has s*x with him last night was because he was using him as a substitute?
Though it was a substitute, it’s still a substitute for him himself, but that sort of feeling must certainly be one of disrespect.
And when he had s*x with Gu Jiqing last night, he never thought of his goddess from beginning to end. He was crazily jealous and wanted to just possess the Gu Jiqing in front of him.
So he was sure that he was in love with the “goddess” of the time, but what about the current Gu Jiqing?
What he could think of more was the raving heartbeat at Gu Jiqing’s already beautiful adult body and appearance, but whether it was due to s*x or love, he was not entirely certain.
Not to mention the sudden collapse of his sexual orientation, which he had believed in for over a decade, Zhou Cibai’s heart was filled with shock and panic.
How on earth should he confess to Gu Jiqing in this situation?
If he were to confess directly, wouldn’t his previous rejection of Gu Jiqing become a confession?
But how can confession be so hasty and informal?
In Zhou Cibai’s traditional love concept, all confessions must be formal and romantic. Anyway, it cannot be like before.
Zhou Cibai thought of these, feeling both regretful and irritable, and troubled by geography without a clear idea.
He lowered his head and, somewhat irritably, vigorously stroked his own hair.
And Gu Jiqing was holding his phone and stood in place, looking at his face with puzzle as he turned red and green, green and red, with a conflicted expression of pain and sweetness, so rich that it’s like replaying an 80-episode dog-blood drama in his mind, unsure of what exactly happened.
However, he adhered to the principles of non-interference and distance and did not ask. He only asked gently after Zhou Cibai finished stroking his hair, “May I ask where you got this photo from?”
“Ah? Oh.” Zhou Cibai raised his head and nervously averted his gaze from Gu Jiqing’s eyes, then said in a strange way. “My friend sent it to me.”
“Your friend?” Gu Jiqing’s rare, slightly raised trailing voice indicated his difficulty in comprehending this coincidence.
After all, the only one who could photograph him and Zhou Zhou from this angle could only be that boy.
So he thought for a moment and asked, “Is that friend of yours also surnamed Zhou?”
“……” Thinking that he seemed to have left a name in a hurry at that time, Gu Jiqeng probably didn’t hear it clearly and only remembered “Zhou”. Zhou Cibai paused slightly and said, “No, his surname is Bai, and his name is Zhou.”
Gu Jiqing: “?”
Zhou Cibai almost used up all his thick skin and disguised calmness in his body before he dared to look directly at Gu Jiqing without changing his expression and say, “It’s because of our names and personalities that we’re friends.”
“……”
There is also such a coincidence in the world.
Although Gu Jiqing always felt that there was something strange, but he believed that people like Zhou Cibai wouldn’t lie, and there was no reason to lie to him as well. He just nodded and asked, “So he attended junior high school in Nanwu?”
“Not attending school, he’s switching classes for two months and quickly returning to Tsinghua University Affiliated Middle School.” Zhou Cibai felt that this statement was the complete truth, so he spoke more calmly. In fact, his palms were already sweating a layer of tension where no one had noticed.
Gu Jiqing didn’t notice anything wrong with him either, he just wondered why he never saw that little boy again afterwards. Everything fits together now.
It seems that Zhou Cibai’s friend is indeed that little boy.
Gu Jiqing has never been very persistent about people or things, and he rarely thinks about anyone.
But that little boy is still a bit different.
Thinking about that little boy who pretended to run into him after every fight for a month and still thought he hadn’t noticed his shyness, Gu Jiqing lowered his head and his lips slightly curved.
That was when he was forced to give up, learning to draw and dance for the last time. If it weren’t for that little boy coming to the art and sports building almost every day to find him, he might have felt that there was no one in the world who needed him.
And that little boy also brought Zhou Zhou to him, which became his only solace for the past few years.
So Gu Jiqing lifted his head with a rare smile of relaxation and joy and asked, “Can I ask you for his contact information?”
Zhou Cibai paused.
He has never imagined that people like Gu Jiqing would take the initiative to ask for his contact information, which indicates that he was actually thinking about that chubby little guy a few years ago.
Zhou Cibai was suddenly glad that he had grown up late, he was just a small, chubby white boy who was not tall at that time. He doesn’t even look like the sports god who was 1.9 meters tall right now, which prevented him from revealing his true form so quickly.
And there is also a kind of sweetness in his heart.
Sure enough, Gu Jiqing also remembers him. His first love wasn’t completely wishful thinking.
When Zhou Cibai thought about it, he could not help, but his ears reddened again. He lowered his head, avoided Gu Jiqing’s sight, and said, “OK, I’ll give it to you later. You can have a rest, drink the congee, and replenish your strength. I’ll go out and buy you some rubbing ointment.”
Then he pushed the congee toward Gu Jiqing, took the room card, and quickly got up and went out.
Gu Jiqing sits down at the table and slowly drinks the congee that Zhou Cibai bought.
He thinks he must’ve gone to that very famous congee store a few kilometers away to get it. It was fragrant, sweet, and soft, and there’s also a plate of sweet and sour side dishes as well.
If it weren’t for the skins on his chest being nibbled by the other person, and now it even hurts when they were rubbed by the nightgown, this would be the most considerate and thoughtful one-night stand partner ever.
Gu Jiqing felt that his luck was quite good.
But when he thinks about Zhou Cibai, also has to go buy medicine and come back. Again, he feels that people with too much morality should also be tired.
He obviously rejected him in such a way, but in order to avoid further harm after he was drugged, he even went against his nature to help him and even put in a lot of effort to take care of him after he had helped too.
How could there be such a person who seeks justice through injustice in the world?
It seems that he could only take the initiative to move away first in order to avoid bringing more disturbances and troubles to Zhou Cibai.
Gu Jiqing thought to himself that tomorrow, he could go and look for a house first.
After Zhou Cibai left the hotel, he bought all the abrasives, anti-inflammatory drugs, and bandages that could be bought from the pharmacy. He then ran all the way to the shop across the street, bought a new phone and SIM card, quickly registered for a new WeChat account, and then forwarded it to Gu Jiqing.
Gu Jiqing has just finished drinking the congee and was preparing to go to bed and sleep for a while when he receives the message from Zhou Cibai.
[White]: Forward a name card: Baizhou123
The avatar is a little dirty dog, taken from that picture just now.
Gu Jiqing smiled for a moment. He leaned against the bedside and clicked to send a friend request. The other party quickly approved and sent a message: [Hello]
Gu Jiqing also replied: [Hello]
Then the phone interface fell into a long silence.
Gu Jiqing looked at the top of the phone, repeatedly switching between [the other person is typing…] and [Bai Zhou123], and felt that the other person might have some social anxiety.
He probably wanted to chat but didn’t know how to start the conversation, just like back then, he wanted to make friends but was shy, clumsy, and cute.
So he took the initiative and said: [Do you still remember me?]
The other party replied in seconds: [Of course I remember]
Words are difficult to express emotions, but Gu Jiqing still felt the other party’s eagerness to prove his feelings from the sudden acceleration of his response speed.
Sure enough, he’s still as cute as before.
Maybe it was because it was a sunny winter day, maybe it was because he finally told Gu Jue not to bother him again, or maybe it was because he unexpectedly reunited with the little boy he thought was cute many years ago.
Gu Jiqing’s mood today is particularly good.
He had a gentle smile in his eyes that he didn’t even notice: [That’s good, I always remember you]
And Zhou Cibai, who was at the end of the phone, standing outside the room with a bag of medicine and breathing heavily, had his heart racing.
Sure enough, Gu Jiqing has always remembered him.
He pursed his lips, and the redness at the base of his ears became gentle: [I thought I was so ordinary back then, and you wouldn’t remember me anymore]
Gu Jiqing thought he was still feeling inferior due to his lack of an outstanding physique and appearance, just like in junior high school. Tapping with his gentle fingertips, he quickly replied, “How could that be? You’ve always been the cutest little boy I’ve ever seen.”
Zhou Cibai felt that his heart was beating so fast that he couldn’t breathe anymore.
Gu Jiqing said he’s cute.
He said he is the cutest.
And Gu Jiqing also said that being cute is the highest evaluation of a boy.
It means that it was not impossible for Gu Jiqing to like him at that time, but because he had changed too much, Gu Jiqing couldn’t recognize him. But still, because of some fated factor, he was once again in his favor.
Just like him.
Thinking of Gu Jiqing praising his cuteness in front of him time and time again, Zhou Cibai couldn’t help but ask: [Then do you think Zhou Cibai is cute?]
After sending, he realized that his question was really inexplicable, so he quickly withdrew in a hurry.
However, Gu Jiqing has already seen this sentence.
He also thought it was a bit strange, but before, this little boy used to talk about inexplicable topics when he was nervous, so he didn’t pay much attention. He just warmed up and replied: [He’s also very cute, and there are some similarities between you two. No wonder you can be good friends]
Zhou Cibai’s ears turned even redder.
Sure enough, Gu Jiqing likes him; otherwise, how could he praise him for being cute in front of outsiders?
But he’s not just cute.
Zhou Cibai pursed his lips and quickly asked: [Then do you think he has any other advantages besides being cute?]
Is Bai Zhou very concerned about Zhou Cibai?
Gu Jiqing looked at this message and felt even more strange in his heart. However, thinking that Bai Zhou had been like this since he was a child, he didn’t think much and truthfully replied: [Quite a lot]
[Cyan]: For example, having a strong sense of morality, never doing anything that goes against principles, and a strong sense of justice and protection
Zhou Cibai’s ears are three levels redder.
[Cyan]: And he’s very capable. He washes dishes and cooks very well, especially sweet and sour small pork ribs
Zhou Cibai’s ears are five levels redder.
[Cyan]: He is very handsome, but his emotional views are very traditional, and he is a very dedicated and responsible person
Zhou Cibai’s ears are seven levels redder.
[Cyan]: Anyway, if he has a lover in the future, then his lover should be very lucky
Zhou Cibai’s ears are ten levels redder.
Gu Jiqing, as expected, likes him.
Even to the extent that he can’t help but praise him so candidly in front of an outsider.
As soon as Zhou Cibai thought of this, his heart kept pounding.
He thinks that Gu Jiqing likes him so much, he is indeed attracted to him. They used to wait for each other for so many years, and now they’re in the same dormitory, so there’s no need to rush some things.
At the very least, he should have taken his time to finalize his thoughts before solemnly confessing his love to Gu Jiqing once more.
After all, once two people decide to be together, it’s a lifelong thing that can’t be rushed or hurried.
He’d been waiting almost five years anyway, and there was no rush to make a decision he wasn’t sure of in just this one month.
He wants to be responsible for himself and also for Gu Jiqing.
Thinking about this, Zhou Cibai sorted out his thoughts, took a deep breath, and prepared to open the hotel room door.
Then the phone rang again.
He lowered his head to take a look.
Gu Jiqing sent a message: [However, he doesn’t really like me, and I’m also causing him a lot of trouble, so I’ll probably apply for a check-out and move out of the dormitory after the end of the semester. You should also try not to mention me in front of him in the future, so that he won’t feel bad]
Just in a short second, Zhou Cibai, who has thought of the whole final week of semester end’s nutrition menu for Gu Jiqing’s body: “……???”
Who said I don’t like you?!
