Zhou Cibai quickly reacted and frantically wanted to exit the page.
As a result, with a tremble of hand, he clicked on the pop-up advertisement, and the entire screen was immediately filled with inappropriate images for children, accompanied by sounds that make people blush.
Zhou Cibai’s ears instantly turned red to the point of blood dripping, but the exit button of the small advertisement was made extremely covert. He thought he had clicked on the crossed-out one, but in reality, he clicked on the other.
So in just a few seconds, he and Gu Jiqing were forced to appreciate various inexplicable and flashy postures, and they were the kind of full-screen flashing too.
Zhou Cibai gritted his teeth with the urge to disappear from this world. His fingers holding the mouse also exerted more and more force, to the point where he forgot for a moment that there was another thing in the world called “Esc” and “shut down directly.”
Finally, Gu Jiqing was worried that Zhou Cibai might melt in place if he continued to be so red. He slowly reached out his hand and closed the laptop for him.
His fair fingertips rested on the edge of the silver metal, and with a click, the room returned to tranquility.
Zhou Cibai: “……”
The attempt to pretend that this has never happened has failed.
He stiffened, stood up straight with red ears, and avoided his gaze. Like a husband who’s caught stealing the bag and has to explain it to his wife. He whispered, “That’s… I’m not watching that, I usually also don’t watch that. I’m just… just…just afraid that you’ll get hurt.”
After finishing the last few words, Zhou Cibai completely lowered his head.
What he had thought was that the first two times they did it, Gu Jiqing always grabbed him and cried out in pain. Moreover, Gu Jiqing had previously said that he didn’t like guys who were too big because he was afraid of pain, so plan on checking out how you can make the experience better for the side that bears it.
After searching and discovering that this video is the most practical and has also taught a lot of other related knowledge, he took notes while watching it.
But he doesn’t know why a serious instructional science video had to have such a powerful title, and it happened to be seen by Gu Jiqing as well. It felt like he was some kind of creepy guy who peeked at little movies in his dorm room.
Zhou Cibai felt that he couldn’t clean himself even if he jumped into the Yellow River. His fingertips hanging on his side curled up uncomfortably, and the redness in his ears spread all the way to his neck, making him look a bit cute and cramped.
And Gu Jiqing, looking at him being like this, listening to his answer, paused slightly and thought for a moment, then asked seriously, “So, do you mean you still want to do it with me?!”
“No! I didn’t have that……”
Meaning.
Zhou Cibai was so frightened by the sudden frank question that he lifted his head, ready to deny it, but he happened to meet Gu Jiqing’s frank with no distractions gaze, as if he had just asked a “Have you had dinner today?” Type of question.
After a brief pause.
The traditional Chinese virtue of honesty and trustworthiness made Zhou Cibai sheepishly lower his head and did not continue to deny it.
Although he didn’t just want to have s*x with Gu Jiqing, if two people were together, that kind of thing would definitely come naturally; otherwise, he wouldn’t have secretly come to learn this.
So to say that he really doesn’t want to seems like a bit of an understatement.
Gu Jiqing had a general understanding in his heart and asked again, “Then are you sure you’re gay?”
Zhou Cibai paused slightly.
As if realizing that the other party may not fully understand the issue, Gu Jiqing said slowly, “Actually, many people are not simply heterosexual or homosexual. They do not reject same-s*x skinship, but that does not mean that they are truly gay. Especially since the first time you have a s*xual relationship is with someone of the same-s*x, this s*xual experience could be somehow misleading. So are you sure you like and are willing to have s*x with someone of the same s*x?”
If it is based on mutual consent, Gu Jiqing does not mind establishing a long-term and stable bedmate relationship with Zhou Cibai.
But the premise is that he hopes Zhou Cibai can fully confirm his preferences, rather than being influenced and misled by an accident he brought.
He looked straight at Zhou Cibai, speaking sensibly and gently, and his eyes were calmly frank.
So much so that Zhou Cibai couldn’t help but start to seriously think about this issue at that moment.
He first thought about his physical contact with other men, and before he could come up with a specific picture, a chilly sensation spread all over his body.
Then he thought about the target being a girl, and in his mind, besides Gu Jiqing wearing a white dancing dress, there was also Gu Jiqing wearing a white dancing dress. Whenever the face changed, his whole body would start to have goosebumps.
He frowned, feeling that he might not like neither man nor woman.
And for his reaction, Gu Jiqing was not too surprised. He said in a warm voice, “So you can think about it carefully, we can talk about this matter when you think it through. Is that okay?”
He still wanted his bedmate to fit from his body to his will, not just a thinly veiled vent.
Zhou Cibai thought that Gu Jiqing might have realized that he was not completely sure whether his current attraction to him was due to s*x or love, so he pursed his lips and let out a low “En.”
After finishing “En,” the dormitory returned to an eerie and awkward silence.
After silence, Gu Jiqing felt that it was necessary to give honest encouragement appropriately and not too much to undermine the self-esteem of an 18-19-year-old boy. Therefore, he spoke gently again, “And it’s actually comfortable. It’s not very painful, you don’t need to worry too much.”
“……”
F*ck!
Zhou Cibai finally couldn’t help but pick up his jacket and throw down a sentence, “I have a practice match this afternoon.” And blushed as he rushed out of the door in embarrassment.
Gu Jiqing curved his lips slightly as he watched his back flee in despair.
For a moment, he felt like he was a bit bad.
But who let Zhou Cibai be this cute?
After all, there shouldn’t be many people who would look up information and take notes seriously before doing such a thing nowadays.
Gu Jiqing reached out and closed the notebook for Zhou Cibai, who had carefully written, “He is afraid of pain, so needs to restrain.” There was some unselfconscious amusement in his eyes.
The things in the gift bag finally revealed their true appearance.
It was the black jacket that remind him of Zhou Cibai when he first saw it.
It came with a handwritten note from Yin Lan: [Zhi Zhi, consider this a gift from Mom thanking Xiao Zhou, Mom loves you]
Gu Jiqing lowered his eyes and looked at the note for a while, then put it in the drawer, put the jacket back into the bag, and placed it next to the table.
He did feel that this jacket was very suitable for Zhou Cibai, but he didn’t feel that Yin Lan was in any position where she should give Zhou Cibai a gift.
So he will send this jacket back and then prepare a new birthday gift for Zhou Cibai himself.
Thinking about it, Gu Jiqing crawled back into his airtight bed curtain and took a peaceful nap.
·
In the basketball court, after a training session, Chen Yubai collapsed to the ground as if he were about to die.
“Brother Zhou, to be honest, are you in a relationship?” Chen Yubai gasped for breath, risking his life to ask.
Zhou Cibai scored a shot and dribbled back to half court, his ears still slightly red, and he tried to control his emotions with his tone: “No.”
Chen Yubai looked incredulous and said, “Then every time you come to train with a shy and embarrassed expression, looking like you want to die. Wasn’t it because sister-in-law scolded you, so you vented your anger on us?”
Where did the sister-in-law come from?
Although he also wanted to turn Gu Jiqing into Chen Yubai’s sister-in-law no matter what, obviously, if he couldn’t give Gu Jiqing a clear and well-thought-out idea, Gu Jiqing would never agree to him.
But part of the reason why he was attracted to Gu Jiqing was because of his gentle and mature rationality, which made him unconsciously and willingly willing to listen to him.
So how on earth could he be sure that he was gay, and how on earth could he honestly answer Gu Jiqing’s question?
Zhou Cibai’s mind became more and more chaotic as he was about to throw a violent three-pointer when he heard a voice from the sidelines: “Chen Yubai, have you finished the game? If you still have not finished it, Qin Zigui and I will go eat hot pot by ourselves. We’re starving to death.”
It was some unfamiliar voices.
Zhou Cibai turned his head to look.
He saw a pretty boy with sharp eyes standing at the edge of the field, his hands in his pockets, and he frowned slightly. A scarf was hanging haphazardly on his chest, with the look of impatience from a young master’s temper.
And another taller boy next to him carefully helped him re-wrap the scattered scarf, lowering his head. The two were only a short distance apart, describing it as natural and intimate.
Zhou Cibai paused slightly.
Chen Yubai, who was originally lying paralyzed on the ground, quickly got up and said, “Don’t ah, Brother Yan. I’m still waiting for a meal. Qin Zigui, please help to persuade him! I still have half an hour left!”
The boy named Qin Zigui didn’t even glance at him, he just continued to calmly help the boy in front of him tidy his collar. “My wife is strict, I listen to Sheng Yan.”
The boy named Sheng Yan lowered his head and tugged at his scarf in dissatisfaction. “I’m not cold, don’t wrap it around me!”
“It will be cold when we go out.”
“I’m not cold!”
“Gather it around and do as you’re told.”
“I just won’t!”
“Be good.”
“I won’t!”
“Then I’ll kiss you.”
“You dare……wu.”
Sheng Yan, who was originally unwilling to wear a scarf even if he was beaten to death, buried his entire chin in the scarf with red ears after Qin Zigui gave him a kiss on the forehead as if there was no one around him, and he didn’t make any more noise.
Chen Yubai, who was completely ignored and fed a mouthful of dog food, “……”
He said bitterly, “You pair of dog-boys!”
And for the first time, Zhou Cibai, who had seriously seen two men fall in love in front of him, came back to his senses from his somewhat shocked daze. He quickly adjusted his expression and pretended to be natural, whispering, “They’re a couple?”
“Ah, we went to the same high school. The one that looks like a dog is from Peking University next door. The one that looks grumpy is from Zhonggong University and was originally a good brother of Zhuma. However, the dog was shameless and managed to chase his own brother. Now all he does is show his love all day long.” Chen Yubai snorted coldly, expressing his disdain.
When Zhou Cibai heard the sentence “Managed to chase his own brother.” He asked, “They are all born…”
He didn’t finish his question, but Chen Yubai understood and thought for a moment. “I don’t think so. Brother Yan is still quite straight, and his taste orientation is usually the same as that of a straight man, but he just likes Qin Zigui. So I can’t say if this is natural or not. But you see Brother Yan, the future police officer, is spoiled and has a bad temper, indicating that as long as two people like each other, it doesn’t matter whether they are naturally gay or not.”
Thinking of the long history of love between these two youngest boys of his, Chen Yubai let out a wise man’s general exclamation.
But Zhou Cibai’s movements were completely halted.
At that moment, what flashed in his mind was Gu Jiqing lazily lying in bed, gently kicking him with his feet, then softly complaining that he had hurt him again last night, then using his usual lazy and soft tone to act coquettishly and say he wanted to eat sweet and sour pork ribs.
Even though this scene had never happened before, that moment was so vivid and blurry in Zhou Cibai’s mind, as if everything was supposed to happen, and as if he had unconsciously copied it countless times in his mind.
And as long as he thinks about that scene, his heart cannot stop beating rapidly, and then it breeds a strong sweetness that he cannot ignore.
Like nectar, it flows warmly through his heart.
It’s not about s*x, it’s not about impulse, it’s not about hormones.
Just a specific enough image could make him feel warm and happy.
So he just wants to be with Gu Jiqing, take care of Gu Jiqing, see him spoil him, see him get angry with him, want him to behave differently when he’s in front of him than when he’s in front of everyone, and confidently prohibit those Pei Yiming or Pei Erming from talking to Gu Jiqing.
Then this is why he wants them to be a couple.
It doesn’t matter whether he is naturally gay, whether he likes boys or girls, whether it’s because of s*x or love.
He just likes Gu Jiqing and wants to treat him well.
Just like Qin Zigui and Sheng Yan, he just saw.
All the problems that troubled him were easily solved by this idea.
The moment Zhou Cibai figured out the answer, he left a sentence: “Today’s training ends half an hour early.” Then he threw down the basketball and ran towards the dormitory without looking back.
He wants to give this answer to Gu Jiqing immediately.
He doesn’t want Gu Jiqing to feel like he just wants to maintain a s*xual relationship with him.
He wants Gu Jiqing to feel his unwavering liking.
And as he ran all the way back to Gu Jiqing’s bed, before he could speak, he accidentally bumped into the bag by the table.
He crouched down, ready to pick up the bag, but a black jacket slipped out of the bag.
On the hanging tag, the words “190” were prominently written, indicating that it was not Gu Jiqing’s size.
And there is also a handwritten card inside the jacket: [TO Xiaozhou, Merry Christmas]
So he is actually different in Gu Jiqing’s heart. He has gifts that neither Lu Ping, Chen Ji, nor Wang Quan have.
At that moment, Zhou Cibai’s heart, which had already accelerated due to intense exercise, suddenly jumped faster and had an indescribable sweetness.
Gu Jiqing really likes him and wants to treat him well.
Then there was nothing for him to hesitate to dwell on anymore.
So when Gu Jiqing stumbled out of the bed curtain with a drowsy and beautiful head and asked softly in a hoarse voice, “What’s wrong?”
Zhou Cibai clenched his fists tightly and looked into his eyes, feeling a little bit uneasy but also asking with extra solemnity and firmness, “Gu Jiqing, can I invite you to dinner on the evening of the 30th?”
He wants to tell Gu Jiqing on his last day of being eighteen that he has been in love with him for a five full years.
Gu Jiqing blinked in confusion and said, “Okay.”
