Chapter 145 – Trauma
Novel Title: 龙血 (Dragon Blood)
Author：水千丞 (Shui Qian Cheng)
Translator: K (@kin0monogatari)
Protagonists: 单鸣 (Shan Ming -MC), 沈长泽 (Shen Changze -ML)
*Please read at Novels Space.space, the original site of translation. TQ*
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When Shan Ming woke up, it was already the next day. A small gap of the curtains was pulled open. The sunlight leaked in, making his feet feel warm.
He rubbed his stomach. It didn’t hurt anymore. But he was so hungry. There was the sound of rushing water in the bathroom so he habitually called out, “Changze?”
The sound of water stopped. Shen Changze opened the bathroom door, “Are you awake?”
“Hmm.”
“Does your stomach still hurt?”
“It doesn’t hurt. I’m hungry.”
“Did you see the post-it note on the bedside cabinet? Call the number above and ask them to deliver whatever you want to eat.”
Shan Ming picked up the phone and dialled the number. After it was connected, the other party asked him what meal he wanted to order. But he didn’t know what to eat after thinking for a long time. How long has he not paid attention to food? For so many years, he just eats what others gave him. For him, food is just for energy to maintain the normal functioning of the body. He can’t even name a few dishes in Chinese. But Shen Changze knows how to manage his food consumption every time. Sometimes, he felt that Shen Changze knew him better than he knew himself.
He had no choice but to pick up the phone and push open the bathroom door again, “Tell him for me. I don’t know what to eat…” Before he had time to react, a golden light flashed in front of his eyes. Something swept towards his face and he stepped back abruptly. Although it missed his face, water was still splashed all over him.
He took a closer look and found that it was Shen Changze’s huge wings that had just brushed past his face.
Shen Changze glanced at him in surprise, “What’s wrong?”
Shan Ming frowned and said, “I’m the one who should ask you this.” He threw the phone to Shen Changze. He looked at Shen Changze’s golden scales and thick long tail. He felt a chill down his spine.
Shen Changze turned off the shower head and took the phone. He quickly ordered a few dishes. After hanging up the phone, he looked at Shan Ming at a loss because he saw the alertness in Shan Ming’s eyes.
Shan Ming glared at him as he turned and went back into the room.
Shen Changze called out, “Baba…”
Shan Ming said coldly: “Turn to your human form. I don’t want to see you like this.”
Shan Ming has a strong heart. Therefore, it is definitely not easy for the seeds of fear to take root in his heart. But even though he tried his best to forget about what happened, when he saw Shen Changze like this, he knew that he could not lie to himself. What happened in the forest that night was still actually vivid in his mind. The whole process of him being violated was full of blood and violence. It left him with lingering fears.
He lay back on the bed again, feeling his stomach begin to feel uncomfortable again.
Shen Changze came out of the bathroom and climbed onto the bed. He gently touched Shan Ming’s shoulder, “Baba?”
The touch on the shoulder appeared to be in the form of a human hand.
Only then did Shan Ming’s tense heart relax. He looked back at Shen Changze, “What are you doing in that form?”
Shen Changze said awkwardly, “Cleaning up.”
Shan Ming said coldly: “Don’t let me see you like that again.”
Shen Changze’s complexion changed, “I promise nothing like that will ever happen again.” He grabbed Shan Ming’s chin and said in a hoarse voice, “Baba, don’t be afraid of me.”
“Who is afraid of you?” Shan Ming pushed off his hand, “Go away. You’re annoying.”
Shen Changze became a little anxious. He immediately hugged Shan Ming, “Baba, I really didn’t mean to do that to you.”
Shan Ming suddenly pressed his chest with one hand as he turned over and sat on him. He slammed his fist with a strong force on his face, “I don’t care whether you did it on purpose or not. But if you dare to fuck me like that again, I will kill you!”
Shen Changze said aggrievedly: “How about I turn into my dragon form and I let you fuck me? You can do whatever you want to me.”
Shan Ming said angrily, “I’m not interested in fucking men’s assholes. And I’m even less interested in monsters!”
Shen Changze touched his leg, trying to comfort him, “That won’t happen ever again. Don’t be angry.”
Shan Ming glared at him fiercely. He slowly fell on him. His lips touched Shen Changze’s ear and he simply bit on it with a strong force, “I’m so angry with you that my stomach hurts again. Damn it.”
Shen Changze stroked his back, “Take some medicine after you eat.”
Shan Ming gritted his teeth and said, “Listen, I’m not afraid of you. I just feel disgusted.”
Shen Changze was so sad that he couldn’t speak. Although he could understand Shan Ming’s feelings, he still couldn’t bear to be called ‘disgusting’ by him.
With the passage of time and the growth of his abilities, the dragon blood gene in his body has been fully awakened. 97% of the blood in his body is dragon blood. It can be said that the state of a Dragon Blood Man is more of his original appearance. He is no longer like when he was a child where he needs to stay in the human form for a long time so as not to exhaust his energy. On the contrary, now, if he maintains his Dragon Blood Man form, he will feel more relaxed. His body would completely be unburdened. These days, the human form is more like a shell for him. Although he didn’t feel uncomfortable, he couldn’t feel the joy of being fully unrestricted.
Sometimes, he felt that he could understand the thoughts of the racist Dragon Blood people. When they felt that being Dragon Blood people would make them more comfortable and relaxed rather than being a human being, they would long to show their true selves. In this world, they wanted to create a world where they don’t have to worry about walking on the streets in the form of a Dragon Blood Man.
He hoped that Shan Ming could accept him as who he really was. But unfortunately he ruined this opportunity. Shan Ming didn’t mind at first. But now, he was disgusted by his Dragon Blood Man form. It made him feel frustrated and sad.
Shan Ming was too careless with his words. He didn’t realise that what he said was hurtful to Shen Changze. But seeing that Shen Changze didn’t speak, he knew that he was somewhat unhappy.
But he himself was even more unhappy than him. Even though he knows that it is still Shen Changze no matter in what form he is, he still has trauma from the feeling of being fucked by a beast. It was scary to even think about it. If he hadn’t experienced too many inhuman ordeals before that, he would have collapsed as an ordinary person.
Just as the two of them fell silent, there was a knock on the door at the right time. Shan Ming got off of him and rolled onto the other side of the bed. Shen Changze jumped off the bed and answered the door with only a towel wrapped around his waist.
Unsurprisingly, the food was delivered to them.
Shen Changze put the hot meals on the table as Shan Ming came out of the bedroom. He sat in front of the table and habitually reached for the chopsticks.
Shen Changze put the spoon into his hand first, “Drink the soup first. Eat the others after the soup.”
Shan Ming threw the spoon away. He wanted to pick up the soup bowl and just swallow everything in one gulp.
Shen Changze frowned. He grabbed his wrist and stuffed the spoon back into his hand, “Your stomach is not completely healed yet. You can’t drink soup like this. Drink with a spoon. Be good.”
Shan Ming had no choice but to deal with the bowl of soup with his pitiful patience. Shen Changze scooped out the white and tender fish and put it in his bowl.
Shan Ming finished his soup and started to talk, “I don’t want to go back to that boring underground base. I don’t like to stay in one place for too long.”
Shen Changze froze. Was Shan Ming discussing with him whether to stay with him or not? He saw a glimmer of hope. He looked into Shan Ming’s eyes and asked, “Then where do you want to go?”
“I don’t know.” Shan Ming said frankly, looking at the two pieces of delicious fish in the bowl. He felt a warm feeling in his heart, “I don’t know where to go.” After all, where can he go?? Where can he feel a sense of belonging? If one day he feels bored and tired, and if he wants to go back to a place to rest, where will he go? ‘Peregrine Falcon’ is no longer a place where he can go back to. So where does he want to go? He wondered……
Before going to Madagascar, he entertained with the excitement of being able to go home to Shen Changze for the New Year after the mission was over. His mood at that time suddenly came to his heart. If they hadn’t encountered Shen Yao at that time, if he hadn’t given Shen Changze to him at that time, then all subsequent conflicts would not have happened. He would have taken the initiative to return to China to his son according to his original plan. And then, he would spend a relaxing vacation together with him.
If there is one place in this world where he can go back to at any time, it is undoubtedly to be by Shen Changze’s side.
Shan Ming pondered for a while before staring straight into Shen Changze’s eyes, “Where do you want to go? When everything is over, you can come with me.”
“I can go with you now. I have a very long vacation.” Shen Changze held his hand, “But, Baba, I have to keep going back to China. I can try not to restrict wherever that you want to go. But I hope that you can go back to China with me to settle down. I want us to have a real home. A place where you can go back.”
Shan Ming felt a tremor in his heart.
He has lived for more than 30 years. But he never knew why he kept on living. He never tried to pursue anything. He always subconsciously told himself ‘you may die at any time’, so he only knows how to live in the moment, not thinking about the future. But the arrival of Shen Changze changed all of this. He began to have concerns and emotional entanglements. He didn’t even spend a lot of money anymore. He was just thinking that even if he died, he could at least leave a sum of money to Shen Changze. Shen Changze touched his heart all over and had changed him. Him running away all this while was not to escape from Shen Changze, but to escape from a new life that made him feel strange. He was running away from things that needed to be thought about right before his eyes. For example, a fixed residence, or home, and a future.
Because there is a person who expects him to live and wants to participate in his future life, he finally has a reason to live and a future that needs to go forward to.
Shen Changze seemed to see through his mind. He said softly: “Baba, if you don’t know what to do, just think of me. It is not difficult to have a home. A life that is completely different from before is not as scary as you imagined. I will always be by your side.”
There was some confusion displayed in Shan Ming’s eyes.
Shen Changze looked at Shan Ming’s eyes that looked like an ignorant child. At this moment, he suddenly understood why Shan Ming didn’t want to go back to China with him. Perhaps it was because he was afraid that he would not be able to live in an orderly society like a normal person. The strange environment will make him feel overwhelmed. If there was no harsh and difficult environment for him to go through, he could only shrink back from stepping into a normal society.
Shan Ming turned his head slightly. He said absentmindedly, “I…will think about it.”
Shen Changze smiled slightly. His heart couldn’t stop jumping for joy. How he wished that his father was willing to stay by his side.
Shan Ming was a little absent-minded after eating a meal. Shen Changze had forced him to eat a few more mouthfuls.
After Shan Ming took the medicine, he turned on his computer to check his bank account to see if his commission had arrived.
At this time, the door was knocked.
Shen Changze walked over to open the door and said quite unexpectedly, “It’s you?”
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*Translator’s Note: SCZ, it was your own fault that SM is afraid of you. This is the consequence for not controlling yourself in the first place. *sighs* They still have missions to do. More excitement! -K
☝🏻Fanart from Weibo. The info on the character cards is from the novel ‘The Return to Cambrian Period’. Spoiler alert: SCZ lost one of his horns in that novel (towards the end of the story).
Next update: 2023.–.–(*TBA)
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