(M) Chapter 89 – ‘Love’ Cannot be Measured
Novel Title: 龙血 (Dragon Blood)
Author：水千丞 (Shui Qian Cheng)
Translator: K (@kin0monogatari)
Protagonists: 单鸣 (Shan Ming -MC), 沈长泽 (Shen Changze -ML)
*Please read at Novels Space.space, the original site of translation. TQ*
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“This small base is currently very hidden. There is no danger of us being discovered by Tang Jingzhi for a short period of time. After everyone has a rest tonight, I will give you a lesson tomorrow. I will explain the body structure of the Dragon Blood people and their weaknesses. I will also introduce the weapons we have specially developed to deal with the Dragon Blood people.” After Tang Tingzhi finished speaking, he introduced the people he brought with him one by one, “Shen Changze does not need to be introduced. This person is ‘Huang Ying’. He is a professional reconnaissance and bomb expert”, he pointed to the simple-faced young man who opened the door for them just now. He then pointed to a forty-year-old bald man who looked very unfriendly, “This is ‘Vulture’. He is a sniper,” and finally he pointed to a burly man who greeted them with a smile, “This is ‘Crow’. He was a fireman. The three of them are all carefully selected as elite combatants. Due to the sensitive relationship between China and Japan, these are the only people I can mobilise. The best configuration from here is that we need your help. It is best to capture Tang Jingzhi alive. But if not, then…” Tang Tingzhi sighed, “he will be executed”.
Huang Ying stroked the short stubble of his hair and said shyly, “I’ll arrange accommodations for you. Come with me.” His English is fluent but his accent is peculiar. It made Pell and Lily couldn’t help but laugh.
Huang Ying looked at these two foreign beauties with big breasts and butts. His face flushed suddenly.
Vulture came and patted Huang Ying’s head, “Have you not seen a girl before? Don’t be shy.” He took out the floor plan of the villa from the computer and put it under the projector. He then showed the sixteen people from ‘Peregrine Falcon’ the location of each functional area of the three floors villa. The exit for them to evacuate quickly was especially emphasised.
After five minutes of explanation, Vulture slapped the table imposingly, “Time to sleep.” After speaking, he consciously went to the door to keep watch for the night with a cigarette in his mouth and a gun in his arms.
There were also three people from ‘Peregrine Falcon’ who would keep watch the first round of night with Huang Ying. Meanwhile, the others went to find their own rooms to rest.
Shan Ming dragged his swollen legs and he no longer bothered to move. He simply took off his clothes and planned to sleep in the living room.
Shen Changze pulled him up, “Let’s go to the room. Don’t sleep here.”
Shan Ming looked at him warily, “What are you trying to do?”
Shen Changze narrowed his eyes and stressed his words one by one, “I’m going to let you sleep.”
Shan Ming pushed him away, “I’ll just sleep here.”
Shen Changze looked at the few people who were keeping watch for the night not far away. He then said in a low voice: “Baba, let me save your reputation for you. Come back to the room with me now. Don’t force me to do anything to you out here.”
Shan Ming is the most fearless of threats. But he immediately opened his eyes, “You say that again.”
Shen Changze said in a deep voice, “Get in the room. I’ll wrap your legs with ice.”
These words didn’t sound like a threat so Shan Ming curled his lips into a scowl thinking that it is really not a good idea to cause a scene here. He asked Shen Changze to help him into one of the rooms.
Shen Changze put Shan Ming on the bed and went out. After a while, he came back with a bag of ice. He untied Shan Ming’s pants with a serious face and wrapped the bag of ice cubes in plastic wrap around Shan Ming’s legs, hoping that the swelling would subside soon.
The ice cubes were too cold and Shan Ming was shivering from the cold. It is summer but he still shivers even without the air conditioner being turned on.
He didn’t want to complain because of the cold so he sat on the bed with his eyes closed. His lips almost turned pale.
Shen Changze climbed onto the bed and hugged him into his arms.
Shan Ming opened his eyes and tried to push him away.
Shen Changze tightened his arms. Just like when he was a child, he was holding onto Shan Ming tiredly. He muttered, “don’t move”.
In a trance, Shan Ming felt that time seemed to be reversed. Shen Changze loved to crawl into his arms since he was a child. When he grew up, he couldn’t squeeze himself into his arms anymore so he was the one who hugged him instead. Now he is a young adult. He is even taller and stronger than him. But this habit has not changed.
Being held in Shen Changze’s arms, he really didn’t feel so cold anymore. The discomfort in his legs seemed to be relieved a little as well.
After being dazed for a few seconds, Shan Ming soon came to his senses. He pushed Shen Changze violently, wondering what it looked like for him to be hugged by his son like this.
Shen Changze seemed to have been prepared for a long time. He didn’t move and only said in a deep voice: “If you move again, I will dislocate your arms again.”
Shan Ming wanted to punch him on the chin, “You fucking dislocate it!”
Shen Changze grabbed his arms and pushed him down on the bed. There seemed to be small flames in his eyes, “You are in your thirties yet your temper is still the same as when I was five years old. Have you grown up at all?”
“Fuck you! I didn’t have to grow up to raise you up to this point!”
Shen Changze laughed angrily: “You raised me to this point? Who raised whom in those ten years? Did you wash a pair of socks yourself? Cooked yourself a meal? Dried your hair? And now you wanted to brag that you raised me? I’m curious. How have you lived these four years without me as your full-time nanny? How did you do?”
Shan Ming thought about it. After Shen Changze left, his quality of life did drop to the state of a primitive person. It was really difficult to adapt to it at first. Fortunately, he wasn’t very picky. It’s just that since then, he never had the chance to eat the Chinese food that Shen Changze has concentrated on researching to cook for him anymore.
Shen Changze looked into his eyes. He looked deeply and then asked a serious question: “Baba, have you thought about me these past four years?”
Baba, have you ever thought about me?
When Shan Ming heard this question, he really wanted to laugh. More than just merely thinking about him, it is easier said that he had always had him in his mind. But the Shen Changze in front of him no longer resembles the kid he remembers and he is not what he expected. His son should have been cute and obedient. He can also enter any battlefield to kill the enemy whenever. He can also hug his waist and act like a baby with him for the whole day. In short, he is nothing like the cold, controlling and imposing young man in front of him right now.
The son he thinks about every day is not like this.
So he wanted to laugh. After thinking about it for so long, what he was looking forward to came as a disappointment to him greatly.
Shen Changze tightened his wrist. He gritted his teeth and said, “Tell me.”
Shan Ming looked directly at him, “I thought about you. But the son I remembered every day was nothing like you.”
Shen Changze sneered: “Then what was he like? Obeying you like a dog? Even if you kick him away?”
“No matter how he was, he wasn’t the type to have feelings for me.”
“Then you completely remembered him wrong.” Shen Changze’s black eyes were like a bottomless ocean as he said, “Who I used to be, who I am now, and who I will be in the future… There is only one thing that will not change. And that is that I want you. I dared not say it before. But it doesn’t mean that I don’t want to. In fact, I wanted to fuck you every day. I was going crazy thinking about it. And I still do now.” He licked Shan Ming’s pale lips which were cold. He treated it as if it was a supreme delicacy, “Baba, you can never imagine how much I love you.”
Shan Ming let him lick him without resisting But he looked at Shen Changze with complicated emotions in his heart. After repeated attempts, he no longer had the strength to get angry over Shen Changze’s treason. With Shen Changze’s shameless confession, Shan Ming had to accept the fact that his son really wanted to sleep with him.
Shan Ming escaped from the mistreatment of his family at the age of six. He was adopted by Lin Qiang at the age of seven. His moral and ethical concepts failed to take shape in a normal and orderly style in regards to society and family. He had already been exposed to bloody and ruthless values by mercenaries from an earlier age instead. Therefore, he lacks emotion, has a cold nature, and only relies on his own likes and dislikes to act and to live. For him, whether it is homosexuality or incest, it is nothing ‘as long as both sides are willing and they don’t get in the way of other’s relationships’. But when this incident really happened to himself, he felt at a loss of what to do. On one hand, he didn’t want to educate Shen Changze by telling him that it was wrong because he didn’t think that there was any right or wrong for this to happen. But on the other hand, he wanted to burn Shen Changze to death. The age difference between the two was thirteen years. How could he have such unreasonable thoughts about an older man? He was really fucking courting death.
So he was feeling conflicted. He was helpless. He was also angry. Shen Changze’s words ‘I love you’ gave him a taste of anxiety.
‘Love’ cannot be measured. But whenever Shen Changze says ‘love’ towards him, he feels happy and warm.
He really hoped that Shen Changze would love him like a son all his life, not as a man.
It’s a pity that he couldn’t make Shen Changze do what he wanted.
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Shan Ming covered his eyes with his hands and said in a hoarse voice: “Fuck, Shen Changze, you bastard…I must kill you…Damn it! You…”
Shen Changze looked at Shan Ming’s flushed red neck and his mood suddenly softened. He took a towel and wiped the melted ice water on Shan Ming’s thighs carefully. He then put on clean pants for him while letting Shan Ming Ming scold a few words to him. He endured it and didn’t say anything to intensify his anger. He covered Shan Ming with a blanket and then consciously ran out to keep watch of the night.
Under the moonlight, he looked at his hand in a daze. He could still even recall the feeling of holding his father tightly in his arms. Back then, he needed to stand on tiptoes to put his arms around his father’s neck so that he could be lifted up by him and held in his father’s arms. But now, he can hold Shan Ming in his arms, which feels amazing and almost unbelievable. He was excited for the first time to have grown up.
Shen Changze put his hands on his own chest. He quietly covered his rapidly beating heart. His heart kept calling out for his Baba.
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*Translator’s Note: Huang Ying will be with Lily in the end. They’re one of a hetero couples I like. Hehe. -K
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Next update: 2023.–.– (*TBA)
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