Really don’t blame Tan Yan for having such thoughts. It’s because Liang Xian’s behavior during this time is like a child who wants candy. Carrying his own quilt, say they are sleeping on the same bed, but in fact, there is not much physical contact.
It was the same with the kiss just now. It was not so much a kiss as a light touch. The purpose was not to take advantage, but to let Tan Yan understand that Liang Xian’s feelings were not a joke, but that he really liked him. At that time, if there were no impactful actions, Tan Yan didn’t know where he would go.
Even so, it is only skin-to-skin contact, not even the exchange of breath, how can it be called a kiss.
“Are you that…” Tan Yan thought about it carefully, and finally remembered that in the police rank training class, the psychology teacher once talked about a phenomenon, “Suspension bridge effect.”
It’s hard for Tan Yan to recall this word, it has been learned more than ten years ago.
“I’m very sure, it’s not.” After Liang Xian hit the wall, he turned back firmly and continued to confess his love, “I’m not the kind of brat who can’t tell the difference between gratitude and love, I’m very clear about my feelings. After knowing your real age, I searched your story on the Internet, and found a lot of your award-winning photos. Seeing your 58-year-old face, my heart will still be moved. At that time I knew, old or not old for me does not matter, I just simply like you as a person.”
Tan Yan was silent for a while and then sighed: “You’re still too young.”
Seeing that Liang Xian was anxious to explain again, he made a downward gesture to stop Liang Xian from continuing to talk.
“You may think that I have not been married for so many years, I do not know anything about feelings. Indeed, I haven’t really been with anyone day and night, and I don’t know the feeling of being dependent on each other for many years after marriage. But if you say it’s young people’s feelings, I’ve seen a lot.”
Tan Yan recalled: “Middle and high school students want to fall in love, but they skip class and elope if their family disagrees. I have caught many of them over the years. They are in love with each other, but when they grow up, which pair is really together? What’s more, the forbidden fruit was tasted for the first time at a young age, and the parents of both sides fought at the police station when they were pregnant, neither of them wanted the child. There is also the sweetness of marriage, the relationship after marriage is consumed by firewood, rice, oil, and salt1柴米油鹽 chái mǐ yóu yán: lit. firewood, rice, oil and salt; fig. life’s daily necessities., the love that was once exhausted, and a lover turns into a resentful spouse.
On the contrary, there are some people who have never met each other, but have married each other because of the right conditions, and have spent the rest of their lives in peace and happiness.
Love is never the whole of life. The hormones of young people are relatively strong. They think that the best relationship in the world is like this. In fact, it is just a young impulse. The relationship that has not learned to take responsibility is always just nonsense.”
Tan Yan just denied all of Liang Xian’s feelings lightly, but it is so realistic that it is hard to refute.
Liang Xian was puzzled: “How can you be sure I haven’t thought it through? How do you know I haven’t learned to take responsibility? I’m an adult and I’m different from the ones you’ve seen.”
“Of course, I know everyone is different, but have you considered my age? Even if you take a step back, I am 39 years older than you, I am young now, but maybe in two years I will have gray hair, wrinkles, lost teeth, paralyzed lower limbs, and lying in bed can’t take care of myself, how do you want to solve this matter? Do you take care of me like a lover? Just now I asked you if you want to provide for my old age, not as a joke, but seriously ask, you find a lover who is so many years older, will there be anything else besides this ending?”
A series of questions from Tan Yan made Liang Xian dazed, he thought for a while before saying: “How do you know I don’t want to? Maybe at that time, I will willingly take care of you to the end of life.”
“I never doubted it,” Tan Yan said, “You are a good boy, even if it was a lonely old man, as long as the organization assigns you tasks, you will take care of him until the end.”
“Then…”
“But I don’t want to.” Tan Yan simply interrupted Liang Xian’s words, “I can hire strangers to take care of me in the future, and I can accept adopting children, but I can’t accept that my lover, who is just the right age, will be dragged down by me, an old man who is dying. If I really like you and love you, then I don’t want the person I like to see me with white hair and chicken-skinned.”
It was the first time Liang Xian see Tan Yan talking in such a reasoned and eloquent way. Tan Yan has always been silent. He cherishes words like gold, and every word he utters is extremely important to the supernatural team and the research team. But today, he was able to say so many words to dispel his thoughts, should he celebrate? Received special treatment from Tan Yan.
“Maybe my appearance deceived you, giving you the illusion that we are of the same generation.” Tan Yan continued, “But after all, I am 58 years old. We grew up with different experiences and different values. In the future, even if we chat, it will be difficult to talk together. You… it doesn’t matter if you like boys or girls, but even if you are in love, you should find someone you can talk to, right?”
Liang Xian’s feelings went from nervous to depressed, and finally turned into a helpless sigh.
He picked up the bouquet of roses and said: “Ninety-nine roses, representing enduring while the world lasts2天長地久 tiān cháng dì jiǔ: enduring while the world lasts; eternal., forever. In fact, there has never been such a thing as forever, and all feelings are nothing but ashes to ashes to ashes in the end. I actually… never thought you would agree to be with me, I just want to tell you my feelings.”
The young boy looked at Tan Yan, and his eyes were not filled with longing, but an unexpressed message.
“You can reject me according to your will, or even ignore me from now on, as if you are a stranger.” Liang Xian crushed a rose, leaving a smear of red in his palm, “I will be very sad, but I respect your thoughts. If you want me to pursue you, I will work hard to become stronger and perform well, and one day I will be your help and be able to fight side by side with you. If you don’t allow it, then I’ll hide my feelings and don’t bother you anymore.
Anything is fine, but please, don’t deny my feelings.”
The young face is full of perseverance, “Don’t use the suspension bridge effect or be too young and irresponsible to deny me, you can reject me, but please look at me squarely. Don’t even persuade me to find a young man or woman, you just need to be responsible for refusing, the rest is my business.”
He quietly sat back on his seat, picked up the rose branch chopsticks that Tan Yan had used, and ate the half plate of food that Tan Yan had left for him one by one.
After some debate, the food was already a bit cold. Liang Xian poured a cup of hot water directly, and ate it with the hot water.
Speaking of which, he has never been here a few times, why come here to eat French food that he is not used to, He’s not a sophisticated upper-class person, but he’s just a student. He eats so much that he can bankrupt the buffet, but he wants to go to a high-end restaurant to seek abuse. It’s better to eat Northeastern food next to the school, at least he can eat a big mouthful of buns and let the boss reheat the food when it’s cold.
Tan Yan also didn’t walk away. He sat opposite Liang Xian and watched him gobble up his meal. Just as he was about to speak, he heard Liang Xian say: “Do not say what you are still young, when you grow up and think of this matter will only laugh it off.”
Tan Yan was about to say something similar, but when Liang Xian said this, he could only keep silent.
“Today, I came here, I know, you have a 99.9999% possibility of rejecting me, but as long as you don’t speak, I still have a glimmer of hope, and if there is a glimmer of hope, I have to try. At least after today, you can stop treating me like a child.” Liang Xian said as he ate.
Tan Yan didn’t know how to answer him. The thoughts of the two were basically two parallel lines, and they would never reach the same point.
“Older people always think about what will happen in the future, while young people only think about the present, this is the essential difference between you and me.” Liang Xian deserves to be extremely smart, he can still come up with a coherent conclusion after losing love, “What I want is to be with you, learn together and make progress together, solve difficulties together, and go to the end together, although the process may be difficult, at least we have worked hard for it. But you don’t even have the idea of trying, you just think that the difficulty cannot be solved. Before any couple gets married, even the question of who will take care of whom after being paralyzed in the future is considered? Should we never get married because one of us will die sooner or later?
Who stipulates that you will definitely go before me, our tasks are getting more difficult every time, you are better than me, maybe next time, next time I will…”
Before Liang Xian could continue, his mouth was covered by Tan Yan.
“I won’t let you die before me.” Tan Yan said seriously, “This is my mission.”
All of Liang Xian’s surging emotions were blocked by this sentence.
He just likes Tan Yan who wholeheartedly serves the country and the people, but as long as he is such Tan Yan, he will never have personal love in his heart, and he will never be able to accept him.
No matter what he says, it’s useless. Tan Yan doesn’t have this string at all, he won’t agree.
This matter will not even leave traces in his heart, and if he performs another task, the two cooperate once, Tan Yan will think that Liang Xian has come out of this strange love, no longer thinking about him.
In the strategy he took, there was no option of 【Together】 from the beginning, both of them were 【Impossible】.
The answer has been revealed long ago. The fifty coins last night had already reminded him. It was Liang Xian who was unwilling to give up and insisted on trying once.
In fact, it is the same to try or not to try, his feelings can never reach Tan Yan’s heart.
After eating all the dishes, Liang Xian raised his head and said to Tan Yan: “Let’s go, we have to go back and do our homework.”
Tan Yan looked at him worriedly, it was still the eyes of an elder looking at a child. Don’t even say that we will maintain a relationship in the future, let each other calm down, adults don’t say that to children.
Just like when a little girl said ‘I’m going to marry my dad when I grow up’ in a childish voice, and her dad would just smile and say ‘Yes’.
This is the relationship between him and Tan Yan.
A relationship destined to have no ending, because when he wrote love on the test paper, what Tan Yan wrote was family love.
The two walked back to school in silence, Liang Xian sat quietly in the dormitory for a while, and then had to take the books and go to Professor Qiao’s class with everyone else.
He didn’t even have time to calm down before he had to sit with Tan Yan in the classroom.
Since he usually helped Tan Yan with tutoring, the two defaulted to sitting next to each other. When Qiu Qizheng was waiting for someone to occupy a seat, he reserved a space for the two of them. Tan Yan sat down generously. What else could Liang Xian say, can only sit together.
He spread out his hand, the rose juice was still in the palm, a piece of red, like his heart that was weeping blood. Liang Xian thought half-heartedly.
Liang Xian thought that Tan Yan was calm, but Tan Yan beside him was also in a very complicated mood.
The evidence is that today’s notes were all wrongly written, and a few blacked-out dots were left on the tidy notebook, which looked extraordinarily abrupt.
Tan Yan was a little disturbed by the passionate feelings of the young people. He has always positioned himself as an elder, as a teacher, as the kind of life mentor who wants to lead the children to grow up, but now it is his fault that he leads the students astray. Or else apply with Minister Yu to make your face older in the future, withdraw from school, and focus on being a guide. Over time, no matter how persistent the feelings are, they will gradually dissipate.
Tan Yan thought about it, and didn’t write many notes. The good thing is that he realized that he was not in good shape today, so he used his cell phone to record Professor Qiao’s lecture, and will take his time to organize his notes when he gets back.
A class was spent in the confused thoughts of the two. After class, the members of the supernatural team stayed behind as usual, but this time there were no Feng Wu and Hai Liren.
“How come they didn’t stay?” Tu Zishi asked strangely.
“The two of them have not awakened their ability so far and have been temporarily classified as the type that cannot awaken.” Qiao Zhixue said, “In fact, we have been prepared from the beginning that not everyone can awaken, now the probability is quite high, the next time there will be newcomers to join, one of the team members is very special, I hope everyone can protect him.”
“One of the twins?” Cui Heyu guessed after thinking about it.
Qiao Zhixue: “That’s right, after several times entering different worlds, everyone’s strength has improved and they have learned to cooperate. With the little deer’s strong support, they should be able to ensure the safety of the twins. And we didn’t pick people randomly, they are all physically fit and have received professional training, so they should be able to handle this task.”
“What’s the matter with the twins?” Tu Zishi was not on the team before, so he didn’t know about the situation.
Qiao Zhixue explained: “The quantum entanglement that occurs naturally is basically that these two particles are originally one. For example, if a proton is divided into two, one is positively charged and the other is negatively charged, these two particles are naturally entangled. We need quantum entanglement for other-worldly transmission. At present, the world generally uses non-linear processes in crystals to generate multi-photon entanglement, but at present, laboratories can only produce up to fourteen entangled particles, which is impossible to realize other-worldly transmission. So we can only focus on the naturally occurring quantum entanglement, and finally, we chose the twins.”
Originally Liang Xian should take the initiative to help the new student explain at this time, but he didn’t speak. Cui Heyu glanced at Liang Xian and said to Tu Zishi: “Twins are originally the same fertilized egg, we have reason to suspect that twins are born with quantum entanglement, and this entanglement must be quite huge. Bringing one of the twins over this time is to hope that people other than Tan Yan can return to the real world, so that they can be grouped in the future.”
“But even if the twins in the real world have telepathy, it is impossible to teleport, right?” Tu Zishi didn’t understand.
Cui Heyu glanced at Liang Xian again, he still didn’t explain what he usually does at this time, so Cui Heyu could only continue to say: “So we can only place our hope on the ability after crossing through the ‘void’. Since there is the ability to predict, why can’t there be people with space transmission ability? Of course, we couldn’t just sit back and wait, but we had to take the twins and try them out in pairs. And we can’t bring them all in at once, we have to keep one in the real world, take one at a time, and stimulate the generation of supernatural powers through the sense of distance in different worlds.”
“How many times do we have to try that?” Yan Yongfeng frowned and asked.
“Don’t know.” Cui Heyu shook his head, “But this is the only way at this stage, unless we get lucky, the next new team member brought in will be able to awaken the space ability immediately.”
“Don’t be delusional,” Qiao Zhixue looked at his watch, “It’s already nine o’clock, we will go to rest after training for an hour and a half…”
He hadn’t finished speaking when the phone rang in his hand. Qiao Zhixue answered the phone with an unprecedented serious expression.
“Assemble immediately,” Qiao Zhixue put down the phone and said, “This time, the ‘void’ happened to appear on the subway track, and a train full of passengers drove directly into the ‘void’.”
After being rejected so miserably, Liang Xian is still faithful to his feeling, really admirable… Tan Yan is overconfident, this is what we called planting a flag.
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