“So that’s how it is.” The space traveler, or rather, Tan Yan opened his eyes, and what he saw was Liang Xian’s concerned face.
He was lying on the young boy’s lap, the man’s hard thighs didn’t make him feel very comfortable, but he felt very relieved.
“Tan Yan, how are you?” Liang Xian saw a flash of unfamiliarity in his eyes and asked with trepidation, “Do you still know me?”
Liang Xian was really afraid that Tan Yan would be possessed by the Evil Consciousness, and if that really happened, he would have to kill Tan Yan with his own hands.
Before that time came, Liang Xian didn’t even know whether he could do it.
“I know.” Tan Yan, who had recovered his memory, didn’t know how to deal with the two memories, so he could only simply answer Liang Xian with a cold voice.
The young Tan Yan’s consciousness of survival is too strong, and the space travelers are not too obsessed with the pursuit of life, so he allows this strong consciousness to cover his own consciousness, loses the memory of the past, and completely becomes a civilian police officer in Ping County, and dedicate his life to the post in a down-to-earth manner.
This forty-one-year-long dream, he woke up today.
He didn’t know how to respond to Liang Xian, and there were more important things to be solved now.
“Get out of my head.” Tan Yan rubbed his brows and shouted coldly.
As soon as the words fell, the energy image of the Evil Consciousness appeared again on the display screen of Tian Shen I.
The external device is sturdy, and although it was dropped by the Evil Consciousness and scratched Tan Yan’s cheek, it is still working tenaciously.
External audio: “Impossible, you, how can your consciousness be so strong? And… are you crazy? Even allowing the consciousness of outsiders to devour his own consciousness, no wonder he lost his memory and degenerated into an ordinary human being.”
Tan Yan slowed down, and calmly said to the Evil Consciousness: “I don’t think it’s degrading to be an ordinary human being, nor do I think a space traveler is such a noble being.”
“Impossible, impossible! Why, why? You actually trapped yourself in this ordinary body, using most of your energy to repair the body, awaken its vitality, and fully integrate another consciousness, using his memory instead of choosing to destroy it, why?” The Evil Consciousness can’t understand Tan Yan’s actions at all.
“I didn’t understand why at first, but I just wanted to do it in my heart.” Tan Yan looked at the Evil Consciousness with some compassion in his eyes, “After forty-one years, I understand now, but even if I tell you, you probably won’t understand it.”
In just a few decades, he has experienced a different kind of life, compared with the boringness of traveling to and from countless worlds in the past, these ordinary years are more impressive.
In protecting and being trusted, he understands what it means to live.
To earnestly live each day, to accomplish everything in a down-to-earth manner, to strive towards a goal that cannot be achieved even in a lifetime, and not to have any regret in life. In the gap between black and white, we have been steadfast in our beliefs and have never done anything against our intentions.
Tan Yan smiled slightly, this feeling was very good.
He placed his hand in the energy mass of the Evil Consciousness, and he didn’t know how Tan Yan used his consciousness, but the Evil Consciousness found that his consciousness began to condense uncontrollably.
“You, what are you going to do?” The Evil Consciousness cried out in panic.
“I won’t absorb your consciousness,” Tan Yan said, “Over the years, I have understood one truth, people shouldn’t live forever, it’s good to have a beginning and an end.”
He absorbed the consciousness of young Tan Yan, was influenced by his beliefs, became a brand new person, and had a different view of the world, this experience is enough.
He doesn’t want to integrate another memory and experience another life, which will only gradually become lost, like this miserable Evil Consciousness in front of him.
“I don’t remember my original name anymore, but I know that my name is now Tan Yan. Once, it didn’t belong to me, but everyone called me that, after being called more and expected more, it took on a new meaning. What about you, have you ever had a profound name? Do you have any greater goals besides constantly devouring and living in a daze?” Tan Yan asked.
“What are you talking about?” The Evil Consciousness was compressed smaller and smaller, he couldn’t resist, and gradually condensed in Tan Yan’s palm.
“You are very strong, but your will to survive is not as good as Tan Yan’s back then.” Tan Yan thought of the figure in his memory who dragged his body and still wanted to live, because he couldn’t repay the country, and his heart was full of emotion.
“What are you talking about, I don’t unders…” Before the Evil Consciousness finished speaking, it condensed into a clear crystal nucleus in the palm of Tan Yan’s hand.
Liang Xian walked up to Tan Yan and looked at him intently.
As smart as Liang Xian was, he had already guessed most of the truth from the conversation between the Evil Consciousness and Tan Yan.
“After persisting for half of your life, but finding that you were actually just an outsider, is it sad?” Liang Xian asked.
He thought of Tan Yan’s previous experience, his persistence in fighting for the safety of Ping County for half his life, all his persistence was because he was a child raised by the people of Ping County, without this premise, would it be uncomfortable to look back on the past?
The world that Tan Yan has fought for all his life is not his own world.
Liang Xian wanted to hug Tan Yan, but he was afraid of hurting him, making Tan Yan think that he was sympathizing with him, so his fingers trembled slightly, and he didn’t dare to stretch out his arms.
“Nothing is worth it or not,” Tan Yan said in a light-hearted manner, “Experience, is the experience.”
Liang Xian’s suspended heart fell, this is Tan Yan.
Tan Yan is not a person who will be frustrated by the slightest gain or loss, and not a person who will die or live for personal feelings. He has a broad mind and always only looks at the further objective.
What attracts Liang Xian is not only Tan Yan’s strength, but everything about this person.
It seems that all the words of praise will not be too much to describe him, he is so good.
“You are the goal of my efforts, whether it’s career or love.” Liang Xian put his arms around Tan Yan and gently leaned his head on his shoulder.
Tan Yan also hugged him and rubbed his head: “I don’t want to change my body like the Evil Consciousness, but this body is really 59 years old, and it has been severely injured and its foundation has been severely damaged, to be able to survive until now, apart from my strength, it probably has the original willpower to support it. Once his… or my goal is achieved, it probably can’t hold on anymore. Even so, will you continue to love me?”
Obviously, there is a better way, but he has to face death so calmly, Liang Xian understands, but his heart hurts even more.
“Feelings are not a faucet, can be turned off if you say it.” Liang Xian buried his face on Tan Yan’s shoulder, afraid that he would cry out unreasonably.
He was troubled by Tan Yan’s inability to feel his own feelings, worried about whether Tan Yan could accept him, and then sad because he didn’t love him enough.
But now it seems that all these are small things, the little sweet things in love, insignificant things.
Tan Yan has a wider universe in his heart.
Tan Yan sighed: “Then I’ll spend the rest of my time loving you, experiencing loyalty, perseverance, and commitment, and finally feel the best love of my life, it’s also very good.”
He felt his shoulders get wet, Tan Yan raised Liang Xian’s head, wiped away his tears, and said with a smile: “Why are you crying? Because of you, I have no regrets in my life, isn’t that great? I have everything.”
Tan Yan is very fortunate that he met that young man who was struggling to survive when he was most confused, his consciousness gave him a steadfast and wonderful life.
And at the end of this life, he also met Liang Xian.
Liang Xian is probably the second young man who touched him, the first one is the will to survive, while Liang Xian is the frank and unadulterated love.
There is no merit in this relationship, excluding all difficulties, regardless of age or race, young and burning hot in front of Tan Yan. Even if it burns the fragile and tenacious heart of the young man, endures the burning pain, but still doesn’t waver.
It’s really beautiful, just looking at it makes people yearn for it. When wiping away Liang Xian’s tears, Tan Yan thought to himself.
He spread his hands, and the crystal nucleus of Evil Consciousness was quietly placed in Tan Yan’s palm.
“It contains the consciousness of Shen Biao and other victims, and it should follow us back to the real world.” Tan Yan said, “After returning to the country, let the organization decide what to do with it.”
Tan Yan can actually absorb this crystal nucleus, even if it can’t prolong his life, it can still make his power stronger.
But he didn’t do it, and he doesn’t intend to do so.
“Okay.” Liang Xian felt a little ashamed, such a big person can’t help but cry, then, while taking over the crystal nucleus, he wiped his face vigorously.
Only after a couple of rubs, he feel a warmth on his face, and only after a while did he realize that it was Tan Yan who took the initiative to kiss his face.
Maybe it’s the legendary kiss to wipe away the tears?
Liang Xian also has no experience in love at all, everything is just talk on paper, after reading a lot of books, he becomes tofu-dregs in actual battle. After Tan Yan promised to be together, the two didn’t make much progress at all.
Moreover, they are comrades-in-arms who have fought together, the first time the two met, Liang Xian was princess hugged by Tan Yan, the physical contact during the mission was very normal, and there is no spark at all.
But now, Liang Xian felt that he was really electrified and his heart was beating very fast.
Tan Yan took the initiative to kiss him and then turned around, don’t know what his expression was now.
Liang Xian threw his arms around his waist from behind, and was about to say something when Tian Shen I, who had watched the romance drama for a long time, asked: “Do you have to be in love to be married? The hormone value in your body soared just now, your heartbeat and blood pressure increased, and your IQ decreased…”
Liang Xian who was being tested by protective clothing: “…”
He doesn’t want to hear an artificial intelligence analyze his hormone secretion when he is in love.
“You’re not wearing protective clothing, I can’t test it,” Tian Shen I also said to Tan Yan, “But your face is very red, it is estimated that the body temperature is elevated.”
“Tian Shen I, why do you want to study love?” Veteran cadre Tan Yan’s voice was still very steady, the slightest bit of embarrassment couldn’t be heard at all.
“Artificial intelligence does not need love, but the human beings I want to protect do.” Tian Shen I said, “I match them with the most suitable partner based on their genes, and the genes of their offspring will definitely be optimized from generation to generation, I think reproduction is a big thing and humans should be happy, but that doesn’t seem to be the case, the shrine often mediates family conflicts, couples who have given birth to 2 children will divorce after completing the reproductive task, I don’t understand why, isn’t the family the basic unit of stabilizing a society?”
Tian Shen I have always been troubled by this issue, now that Tan Yan and Liang Xian have a relationship that does not aim at reproduction, and such excellent genes are not going to be passed on, Tian Shen I is very curious.
TBH, I wouldn’t call those years Tan Yan live as civilian police officer as ‘living his life’ either. He doesn’t have friends, lover, family, pet, hobby, etc. He just work non-stop. The only living he did is when he join the supernatural team, IMO.
