Jing Fu Yuan never thought that Yu Jia Xing was serious when he said ‘blow their heads off’.
In the afternoon, the teacher went to a lecture and the class had a self-study session. The class was quiet at first, but it started to get rowdy about ten minutes before the end of class.
The class was in chaos, so Yu Jia Xing tried to put on his earphones to listen to the lesson, but before he could unhook them, he heard someone say: “Yu Jia Xing, when did you hook up with someone from the opposite class?”
Yu Jia Xing turned his head to look and found that it was the person who had been beaten up by Jing Fu Yuan in the morning.
He asked calmly: “What did you say?”
The man didn’t expect Yu Jia Xing to speak up, as the boy had always been silent and scolded by them in the past. It was good that he spoke up, so that he could continue to be hurt. He didn’t dare to ask the man opposite to pay for that punch, but he could still bully this weakling, right?
The man thought very well and said in a subdued manner: “I said you hooked up with the opposite class’……”
He didn’t finish his sentence because Yu Jia Xing suddenly stood up and dragged his chair this way, holding it up as he went. He looked thin and weak, but his arm strength was great, and his face had little expression as he calmly added: “Say that again.”
Everyone in the class was stunned.
Finally, someone pulled Yu Jia Xing away from him, and that man ducked so the chair did not fall on him.
The chair hit the ground solidly and everyone froze.
Yu Jia Xing had really intended to hit someone with the chair – how much heart did he have to have?
What had he been through after a holiday?
Yu Jia Xing was actually thinking very simply, he felt that Jing Fu Yuan was right, he just liked men, there was no sin or wrong, so why should he be silent? Silence will only make the busybodies more arrogant.
Pick up the chair and just do it! Lao Da is my strong backer, I feel full of strength!
The villain in Yu Jia Xing’s heart was wailing with his fists raised.
When class ended and Jing Fu Yuan got up to go to the toilet, his table mate suddenly said, “Going to find that little girl again, huh?”
Jing Fu Yuan thought for a few seconds before he realised he was referring to Yu Jia Xing: “He’s not a girl, he’s a guy.”
The table mate laughed and said: “I’m not blind, I know. Isn’t he called ‘little girl’ in his class? Soft and fragile, he looks quite like that to me.”
Jing Fu Yuan somehow found the words harsh and frowned as he left the classroom.
The class across the hall was in a mess and Jing Fu Yuan was in a bad mood, so he looked over there irritably and saw Yu Jia Xing standing in the middle of a group of people.
Yu Jia Xing had grown taller and his hair was shorter, so it was only right that Jing Fu Yuan could see him at a glance.
After stopping in his tracks, Jing Fu Yuan listened to three or four sentences at the entrance of the class and understood the general situation. He was a bit surprised, Yu Jia Xing actually dared to throw a chair at someone, he must have been forced to do so, right? The man who was sitting opposite Yu Jia Xing, the one who bullied his little brother in the morning, will be beaten up every time he sees him in future.
“Yu Jia Xing, you’ve gone too far with this.” The class leader said somewhat seriously, “We are all in the same class, why are you so quick to pick up a weapon?”
He had been scolded for so long, but he had never seen the class leader be so righteous and hypocritical. So he seriously answered back to the class leader, his voice was so clear that he could be heard in this big classroom, saying: “Idiot.”
Jing Fu Yuan, who was eavesdropping on someone’s door frame, held back his laughter.
The class leader’s face was green with anger, “You, you……” for half a day, many people in the class could not hold back their laughter, and those who usually looked at the class leader in a bad light even applauded.
“Yu Jia Xing.” Jing Fu Yuan knew from this atmosphere that his little brother would be bullied if he stayed in the class any longer, so he shouted, “Let’s go, go to the toilet.”
Yu Jia Xing had just been very tough, confronting people with no expression, but as soon as he heard Jing Fu Yuan’s voice, he cowered, blinked twice and followed him over.
“They’re talking about you again?” Jing Fu Yuan saw Yu Jia Xing come out and asked as he walked.
“Oh.” Yu Jia Xing nodded, “He dodged it and didn’t get hit.”
Jing Fu Yuan: “You were really planning to blow his head?”
“Not……either, I guess.” Yu Jia Xing said with a bit of uncertainty.
“How come you have so much guts?” Jing Fu Yuan found that he couldn’t help but laugh as soon as he spoke to Yu Jia Xing, this kid was too funny.
Yu Jia Xing lifted his head and said very straightforwardly: “Lao Da covers me.”
“……I can’t cover you.” Jing Fu Yuan’s steps lurched and continued walking again. He knew that Yu Jia Xing trusted him, but this trust was so heavy that he was afraid he couldn’t afford it.
Although he had grown taller, Yu Jia Xing was still shorter than him by a large margin, and he could see the boy’s soft white cheeks and dark hair when he looked down sideways.
He had heard so many people say bad things about Yu Jia Xing that if he hadn’t come into contact with this person, he might have believed the rumours too.
Luckily he had got to know him one step ahead of the rumours.
Jing Fu Yuan knew that his little brother was a very soft and sticky child with a heart half full of fairy tales – not that he was naive, but that he was beautiful.
He was afraid that gossip would attack Jing Fu Yuan, so he deliberately kept his distance from him; he was afraid that liking the same sex was a sin, so he bore all the malice of others in silence by himself.
This boy is beautiful, soft and easy to bully when he smiles, and he deserves the best. But the reality was that many people referred to him, either unintentionally or intentionally, with derogatory connotations in their words.
“Can’t cover?” Yu Jia Xing had clearly not thought of this aspect and froze as he repeated Jing Fu Yuan’s words.
“Just kidding.” Jing Fu Yuan didn’t know what he was doing, this was a promise he obviously couldn’t afford to give, yet he couldn’t help but continue on, “Can cover you.”
Yu Jia Xing looked up, Jing Fu Yuan did not look at him and said, “Beat ba, I’ll take the blame if something goes wrong. Your Lao Da mixes in the black.”
— This boy is so good, he deserves the best.
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It hadn’t been long since the start of his senior year when Yu Jia Xing realised he might not be able to establish an intimate relationship with books.
“Already read it very carefully.” Yu Jia Xing’s head whipped around, “They just don’t love me.”
Jing Fu Yuan pressed his head, which was shaking back and forth: “This reason is not valid.”
“Oh.” Yu Jia Xing responded and continued to bury his head in his language book.
The library was quiet and Yu Jia Xing peeked at Jing Fu Yuan’s side face. For a moment, he felt that it would have been better if he had met Jing Fu Yuan first and liked him first.
He seemed to have fallen in love with Jing Fu Yuan.
The cold penetrated into the whole autumn, and only a few dead leaves remained on the branches of the trees, when feelings suddenly sprouted.
Yu Jia Xing felt that he had ‘fallen in love’ too quickly. He thought of Meng Rui and was confused, thinking that love at first sight was not reliable and that love over time was more reliable.
But when it comes to him, it’s the same thing – it ends in vain.
Therefore, Yu Jia Xing didn’t expect anything, just let him run behind his Lao Da in his senior year. That alone was enough for him.
Yu Jia Xing’s thoughts were very good, but he had no time to go to Jing Fu Yuan because of the heavy workload in senior year, and even if he did have time, he was afraid that he would disturb Jing Fu Yuan’s studies.
The two would occasionally run into each other in the canteen, but Yu Jia Xing never ate alone, so Jing Fu Yuan couldn’t stand it and would sit opposite him every time he ran into him. The two of them don’t talk during meals, and they don’t fit in with the lively canteen.
Today, school ended a little early and Jing Fu Yuan and Yu Jia Xing were walking back after eating when they ran into Meng Rui on their way.
Meng Rui was holding a basketball and asked Jing Fu Yuan: “Play ball?”
Jing Fu Yuan waved his hand and said: “No, I’m going back to class to revise.”
Meng Rui bared his teeth when he heard the word ‘revise’ and turned to Yu Jia Xing and asked, “Are you going? Play ball.”
Yu Jia Xing didn’t expect Meng Rui to call him, “No, I’ll go back to class to revise too.”
Meng Rui walked away with his teeth bared, and Yu Jia Xing couldn’t help but turn his head to look at his back, thinking how much he hated revision.
Jing Fu Yuan took it all in and moved his mouth, unable to resist asking: “Do you still like him?”
Yu Jia Xing turned back stiffly and stared at him with wide eyes. Although he had single eyelids, his eyes were watery and shiny, and his eyelashes were long, long and straight, unlike Jing Fu Yuan’s eyelashes that were naturally curled.
Jing Fu Yuan coughed dryly, not knowing what to say, he had actually known that Yu Jia Xing liked Meng Rui when he found out about his sexuality.
Yu Jia Xing was wronged, but he couldn’t explain, so he could only say dryly: “I don’t like him.”
Jing Fu Yuan also felt that he had asked the question out of the blue and nodded: “En, I understand.”
Yu Jia Xing was desperate, thinking, what do you understand?
It can be said that Yu Jia Xing had a very stifling time throughout his senior year.
Jing Fu Yuan always felt that he liked Meng Rui, and no matter what he said, Jing Fu Yuan felt that he was trying to hide it.
Eventually Yu Jia Xing gave up and told Jing Fu Yuan: “Ge, whatever you say is right.”
After that, he studied like crazy and applied for the university that Jing Fu Yuan wanted to go to as his first choice.
Yu Jia Xing thought, it was too crazy, he was already stupid before the college entrance exams came. If he could really get in, he would tug on Jing Fu Yuan’s trouser leg and chase after him.
Later on, he really got into that university and also met Jing Fu Yuan at school.
Jing Fu Yuan was a bit surprised and exchanged pleasantries with him, asking him which department and which class he was in.
Yu Jia Xing told him in a confused manner.
Jing Fu Yuan said: “What a coincidence, I have a cousin who is in your class……”
When Jing Fu Yuan spoke, Yu Jia Xing actually didn’t hear a few sentences. His heart was full of Jing Fu Yuan at that time, like a dream, he really met him again.
Jing Fu Yuan was also uncharacteristic that day, pulling Yu Jia Xing to say a lot. Yu Jia Xing didn’t look up, so he didn’t see it. Jing Fu Yuan’s mouth was smiling, and was genuinely surprised by his arrival.
When he finally said goodbye, Yu Jia Xing said, “Ge.”
“En?”
Yu Jia Xing pressed the pulse on his left hand, “See you tomorrow.”
“See you tomorrow.”
It was too early to say ‘I like you’, Yu Jia Xing kicked the broken leaves around his feet, ‘I’ll see you tomorrow’ ba, he would still like him tomorrow.
This is so romantic, Yu Jia Xing pursed his lips and giggled, his eyes curved like it was full of sunlight.
