Chapter 50
Shi Nan rushed to the bathroom to wash his face and brush his teeth quickly. He ran out without drying his face and planned to go to work. He saw Song Linsheng was still in the mood to cook in the kitchen.
“Baby, there is no time to eat. Let’s buy something on the way.” Shi Nan ran to the kitchen and hugged Song Linsheng before pulling him out.
Song Linsheng grabbed his wrist and pulled him back: “It’s not late. Have breakfast first.”
“As the boss of the company, you can’t just think about eating.” Shi Nan turned off the fire, picked up the fried egg in the pan with chopsticks and bit it into his mouth while pulling Song Linsheng away.
Song Linsheng had no choice but to follow him to change shoes and go out. Shi Nan ate half of an egg and stuffed the rest into Song Linsheng’s mouth.
Song Linsheng glanced at Shi Nan, said nothing, and ate the egg silently.
There were only the two of them in the elevator. Shi Nan stood by Song Linsheng like a boneless person, and his hanging hand was still kneading Song Linsheng’s index finger.
Song Linsheng looked at the display screen in the elevator expressionlessly, his whole body was a little stiff. He began to regret that he had impulsively replaced that person in the morning.
They arrived at the company and went upstairs together. When they saw the secretary, Song Linsheng said, “Sort out the minutes of the meetings in the past few days and give them to me.”
“Okay, Mr. Song.”
Shi Nan glanced at Song Linsheng when he heard this, but he didn’t think much about it. He was in a hurry to go to work.
At noon, Shi Nan went to Song Linsheng’s office to eat as usual. When he entered, Song Linsheng seemed to be reading a book. When he saw Shi Nan, he put the book into the drawer.
Song Linsheng’s office now felt the same as home for Shi Nan. He lay down on the sofa and opened his arms to Song Linsheng: “Come on, baby, hug me and comfort my suffering body.”
Song Linsheng sighed in his heart. He never thought that the way they got along would be like this—Shi Nan was always so affectionate and clingy. Did he have some kind of skin hunger?
Hesitating for a moment, Song Linsheng got up and walked over. Just as he reached the edge of the sofa, Shi Nan pounced on him and hugged him tightly, saying, “I miss you so much.”
Song Linsheng was speechless. It had only been three hours since they parted at the company. Did Shi Nan really miss him this much?
Shi Nan felt that Song Linsheng’s hugging posture seemed to be wrong today, a little stiff.
“What’s wrong with you?” Shi Nan was puzzled.
“Nothing.” Song Linsheng touched Shi Nan’s head, “Let’s eat.”
They ate as usual. Song Linsheng was always worried because he was guilty and afraid that Shi Nan would find out something. Fortunately, Shi Nan didn’t seem to find any clues.
After eating, Shi Nan rested in Song Linsheng’s room, but he couldn’t fall asleep lying on the bed. He always felt that he had overlooked something, but he couldn’t pinpoint what he had overlooked.
In the end, Shi Nan didn’t fall asleep. He opened the door and went out. Song Linsheng was leaning on the sofa with his eyes closed.
Shi Nan looked at him and felt at ease.
Shi Nan walked over and sat directly on Song Linsheng’s legs, then hugged his neck and found a comfortable position to lie on him.
Song Linsheng’s whole body stiffened, his hands were placed on his sides for a long time without moving.
He regretted it so much now.
Shi Nan sighed and whispered in his ear: “Song Linsheng, when this busy period is over, let’s go out for a trip.”
“Okay.” Song Linsheng’s stiff hands slowly moved up to his waist.
Just… indulge once.
Indulge once with another identity.
Shi Nan was actually a little clingy these two days. Whenever he had the chance, he would cling to Song Linsheng, fearing that Song Linsheng would disappear if he was not watched.
He was uneasy in his heart, but he couldn’t say it clearly, so he could only rely on this kind of skin-to-skin contact to convey his feelings.
Shi Nan tilted his head and pressed his lips against Song Linsheng’s.
Song Linsheng instinctively leaned back, but was attracted by the softness on his lips.
Shi Nan didn’t make any big moves, just closed his eyes and gently pressed against him, like a kitten who only wanted to be pampered.
This posture and this intimacy made both of them feel very comfortable, like bathing in the summer evening breeze, with catkins brushing against the tip of their hearts, numb and itchy.
However, the posture of the two people was a little too intimate, and it was inevitable that some misfires would occur when they rubbed against each other.
What was originally just a simple touch turned into a turbulent kiss.
Song Linsheng held Shi Nan’s waist and pressed him against himself. The change in his breath was very obvious.
Shi Nan raised his head, and Song Linsheng’s kiss chased after him and bit his neck.
Shi Nan frowned but sobered up a little from the pain . Today, Song Linsheng seemed a little… awkward.
Although they had not reached the last step, they kissed and touched each other almost every day. Song Linsheng no longer had the dog-biting kissing skills of a young boy that he had at the beginning. Why did he become a puppy again today?
There was a soft knock on the door outside. Shi Nan suddenly woke up, rolled off Song Linsheng, stood up and walked into the inner room.
Song Linsheng adjusted his clothes and then called out indifferently: “Come in.”
Shi Nan looked at the mirror for a while. There were several red marks on his neck from Song Linsheng’s sucking. In fact, Song Linsheng had always been very careful not to leave marks on his neck. After all, this matter was considered ambiguous if happened once or twice
But it would not be good if it happened too many times, as people would think that he was overindulging himself.
Shi Nan was thoughtful, and always felt that Song Linsheng was a little different today.
In the past few days in the office, Shi Nan always liked to tease Song Linsheng, but the reason he dared to tease was because he knew how Song Linsheng would react. After kissing him twice, he would pat him and tell him to get up and not to indulge in lust in broad daylight. But today, Song Linsheng was obviously unable to restrain himself, which made him a little addicted.
Could it be…
Song Xiaobai was pretending to be him?
Shi Nan was shocked by this idea.
Impossible.
Song Xiaobai, although he liked to tease him sometimes, always knew the limit and never crossed the line.
And how could he know the secret code?
Shi Nan felt doubtful but not sure. It was actually easy to know.
Shi Nan heard the secretary leave outside the door, and then walked out.
Shi Nan walked over and lay on the sofa: “I’m so tired, please help me massage my shoulders.”
Without waiting for Song Linsheng to speak, Shi Nan added: “Just like yesterday.”
Massage like yesterday?
Song Linsheng frowned, hesitated for a moment, and then pressed Shi Nan’s shoulders with both hands.
Shi Nan narrowed his eyes.
F*ck, he never let Song Linsheng massage his shoulders.
“Is my strength okay?”
“Press a little harder.” Shi Nan said, almost gritting his teeth.
Song Linsheng’s strength in his hands suddenly increased, and Shi Nan howled directly: “Do you want to murder your husband?”
Song Linsheng smiled and relieved some of the strength: “I didn’t notice.”
“Mr. Song, your skills are not as good as yesterday.” Shi Nan said deliberately.
“Really?” Song Linsheng didn’t know what he was thinking, and his voice dropped a few points. “It will be better in the future.”
Shi Nan shrugged: “Don’t pinch my shoulders, give me a leg massage.”
Shi Nan turned over from the sofa, and his long legs were directly placed on Song Linsheng’s legs, and he signalled to him with his eyes, “Massage them.”
Shi Nan’s arrogant commanding look would have made him get a slap even if it was another Song Linsheng. But at this moment, Song Xiaobai couldn’t figure out how they got along, whether it was as humble as now to massage his shoulders and legs, so he could only obey.
You also have this day.
Shi Nan felt a little better.
“Go down a little bit, massage the calves a few more times.” Shi Nan instructed him.
Shi Nan took this opportunity to torment Song Linsheng. Song Linsheng didn’t know if he didn’t feel it or what, but he listened to him and massaged wherever he asked him to, and was very obedient.
Looking at his serious look with his eyes downcast, Shi Nan felt warm in his heart.
“Song Linsheng.” Shi Nan called him.
“Hmm?”
“Actually, I think our life is pretty good now.” Shi Nan said softly, “I’m pretty happy.”
Really?
Song Linsheng was stunned for a moment. After he was gone, their life was calm and uneventful. All the problems were solved, so they should be happy.
Song Linsheng lowered his eyes. Shi Nan couldn’t see his expression, but he felt the loss at that moment.
“Everyone living in this world has their own troubles, and we are no exception. Although you are not the same person during the day and at night, I think it’s good to get used to it.”
Song Linsheng didn’t expect him to bring up this topic. He looked at him in disbelief. When Shi Nan looked at him, Song Linsheng lowered his eyes again without a sound.
Shi Nan thought, he was so damn calm.
This kind of person could remain calm even with a knife on his neck and a bomb on his head. Anyway, he couldn’t do it.
“I actually…” Shi Nan hesitated for a moment, “I think Song Xiaobai is also pretty good.”
Song Xiaobai?
Song Linsheng quickly realized that Song Xiaobai referred to him.
“You think he’s good?” Song Linsheng looked up at him with narrowed eyes, as if angry.
Ha.
Shi Nan rolled his eyes in his heart. He was still in the mood to act at this time.
“That’s not what I meant.” Shi Nan hurriedly explained, “I told you not to be angry.”
“You say.” Song Linsheng looked at him meaningfully.
“It’s just… I feel like I can’t tell you two apart sometimes. I feel like you both have similar personalities and temperaments. If there’s no code, I wouldn’t know who’s who.”
“My personality is different from his.” Song Linsheng’s voice became heavier, and he repeated it again as if to convince himself, “Different.”
“Almost the same.” Shi Nan observed his expression and continued cautiously, “How do you know what his personality is like when you can’t see him? I face you two every day, and I know him better than you do.”
“You searched for Xiao Bei, and he also searched for Xiao Bei. You searched for Xiao Bei’s parents, and he also searched for Xiao Bei’s parents. You’re obviously the same.”
Song Linsheng suddenly felt a little dazed. He never thought about it before. Even though Shi Nan always said that he couldn’t tell them apart, which more or less revealed the other’s style of doing things, he never thought about it deeply. He didn’t know if he was deliberately avoiding it or didn’t dare to accept it.
But Shi Nan said it so bluntly that he had no way to avoid it.
Song Linsheng pressed his temples and felt a headache.
Seeing this, Shi Nan stood up and stretched out his hand to fan his face: “Are you okay?”
Song Linsheng shook his head, leaned back on the sofa with his eyes closed, and looked a little tired.
Shi Nan hardened his heart and pressed on: “Actually, I always feel something strange. I don’t think you two are two different personalities. It’s like you have lost your memory. He has no memory of the day, and you have no memory of the night.”
Shi Nan saw Song Linsheng’s eyebrows frowned.
Shi Nan’s heart was pounding. In fact, he was also taking a gamble.
If Song Linsheng couldn’t really face himself, then everything else couldn’t go on. Now Song Xiaobai has a clear tendency to self-destruct, but he couldn’t self-destruct at all from the way he looked now. Shi Nan was afraid that he would do something extreme at that time.
Shi Nan leaned over and kissed Song Linsheng on the lips: “I actually miss Song Xiaobai.”
After saying this, Shi Nan ran out of the office.
Shi Nan slapped himself in the face as soon as he left the office, and spat at himself: “Scumbag.”
Song Linsheng leaned on the sofa for a long time before opening his eyes. He returned to his desk and took out the book that he had put away when Shi Nan came in before – “Split Personalities”.
The same personality?
How was it possible?
He should be simple, kind, full of sunshine, positive, completely different from himself.
But why can’t Shi Nan tell the two of them apart?
It should be easy to distinguish.
If…
Song Linsheng’s eyes suddenly burst into a little light, does it mean that he still had a chance to have Shi Nan?
At 6:10 in the evening, Shi Nan looked at Song Linsheng who came out of the bedroom nervously.
Song Linsheng met Shi Nan’s expectant eyes, curled his lips and smiled: “Why, one day without seeing, it felt like three years?”
Shi Nan was deceived by Song Xiaobai, so he was not sure at this time.
“What’s wrong?” Song Linsheng walked over and touched Shi Nan’s head, it was not hot.
“It’s okay.” Shi Nan shook his head, stood up and hugged him, “Why did you suddenly change today?”
Song Linsheng walked to the kitchen, and as he walked, he seemed to say casually: “Shi Nan, if you keep living like this in the future, will you get bored?”
Keep living like this?
Shi Nan was stunned for a moment, and then realized what he meant.
Three people living together?
“I won’t get bored.” Shi Nan followed into the kitchen and hugged him from behind, “I think this is also good.”
Song Linsheng was about to take a knife to cut vegetables, and paused after hearing this: “Shi Nan, actually you like Song Xiaobai very much, right?”
Shi Nan’s first reaction was that he should deny it immediately, but he deliberately hesitated for a few seconds: “I don’t like him, but he really looks like you. Sometimes I can’t tell the difference.”
Shi Nan’s voice was a little aggrieved, Song Linsheng turned to look at him, Shi Nan lowered his head: “He speaks like you, and his style of doing things is also like you. Sometimes I feel that he is like you who has lost your memory.”
Me who has lost my memory?
Song Linsheng slightly trembled.
Shi Nan turned around and ran back to the bedroom, opened the drawer, took out a small box from the innermost part, and came to Song Linsheng: “Look.”
Song Linsheng opened the box and saw a Pixiu.
Shi Nan also pulled out the Pixiu hanging around his neck.
There was surprise in his eyes at first, and then calmness.
“Did he give it to you?”
“Yeah.” Shi Nan nodded, “You gave it to me the night before, and he gave it to me the next morning. You bought it from the same store.”
Song Linsheng recalled the time when he gave Shi Nan the Pixiu, and then frowned: “He gave it to you, so you kept it?”
???
Shi Nan was speechless. Was this the point?
“No, I didn’t take it.” Shi Nan hurriedly explained, “I really didn’t take it, and then he…he threw it away, and I went to the trash can to pick it up. After all, it’s all money, all your money.”
Song Linsheng held the Pixiu in his hand and suddenly looked at Shi Nan: “Shi Nan, what do you want to say?”
Shi Nan was speechless by Song Linsheng’s question. He suddenly felt that he didn’t have the brains to beat around the bush with Song Linsheng.
Shi Nan’s mind was turning rapidly, and finally he made up his mind: “Song Xiaobai said that as long as Xiao Bei and Xiao Bei’s parents are found, he will disappear. Do you have the same idea?”
Song Linsheng looked at him suddenly, with incredible eyes.
Shi Nan’s heart sank. He had guessed right. He and Song Xiaobai had the same idea.
Shi Nan shook off his hand and said coldly, “So, how are you going to leave? Are you going to throw me away like you threw Xiao Bei away that year?”
“Shi Nan.” Song Linsheng interrupted him hoarsely, “What nonsense are you talking about?”
Shi Nan clenched his hands hanging by his side. He wanted to give a strong medicine, but he didn’t know if this medicine would work.
“I’m not talking nonsense.” Shi Nan went forward and hugged him, resting his head on his shoulder, “I just want to tell you that I love you, I want you. If one day you disappear, I will die in front of you.”
Shi Nan felt that Song Linsheng was stiff.
Shi Nan hugged Song Linsheng tightly, feeling apologetic in his heart. “I didn’t mean to threaten you with death intentionally, but in urgent times, I had to resort to it. Please bear with me.”
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