RES Chapter 80

Countless despair fell on Chi Qiu’s thin shoulders. He looked like he had done something terribly wrong and all sorts of reasons pressed him down to the point where he couldn’t breathe properly. He slowly took a deep breath, the hysteria inside him did not break out after all. The loud voice just now was already his limit.

He had always been used to holding back that he had long been unable to lose his temper normally.

Tears fell from his dull left eye. Even though this eye couldn’t see, it would still be sad, would still shed tears.

Chi Qiu sobbed uncontrollably and became undignified in front of Lu Ming.

His palm loosened and the ring box rolled onto the bed sheet, a lone one. Since it was something that he couldn’t grasp, he didn’t want it.

He admitted that he had come all night today for a chance of salvation. He did not take with him evidence from Ji Feining, let alone being aggressive with Lu Ming. But Lu Ming’s indifference, sentence after sentence, was enough to give him a death sentence for his feelings.

Chi Qiu struggled to hold up his arms, his tears had dried up and like his empty mind, Chi Qiu’s whole person was empty.

He got up and wanted to leave the place.

Lu Ming held Chi Qiu’s shoulders but said nothing. He grabbed Chi Qiu’s shoulders but did not dare to force, nor did he dare to let go.

He was afraid that once he let go, Chi Qiu would leave.

In the face of the truth, Lu Ming’s lies were vulnerable, so he had to admit it. But now, he regretted admitting it. He had always been thoughtful, but at this moment, in addition to being distressed, he was guilty. He didn’t know what happened to him, but watching Chi Qiu crying, his heart swelled uncomfortably.

Chi Qiu’s voice was hoarse: “Let go.”

Lu Ming didn’t move.

Chi Qiu raised his head and put away the act of crying. He began to become icy cold, looking at Lu Ming motionless. The scorching fire in his eyes was extinguished and there was not a trace of sparks left.

After a long, long time, so long that even Chi Qiu’s voice was no longer tainted with the sound of crying, Lu Ming still grabbed his shoulders.

Chi Qiu whispered: “Lu Ming, let go, I’m very tired.”

“…”

“Please.”

Lu Ming had no choice but to slowly let go of his hand. Just like when Chi Qiu came, Lu Ming’s hand was shaking slightly. He restrained his right hand, breathing heavily and was anxious: “Don’t go!”

Chi Qiu could not hear the change in Lu Ming’s tone anymore, he indifferently pushed him away.

Lu Ming lowered his numb head. He held Chi Qiu’s hand anxiously, repeating: “Don’t go…”

Chi Qiu stood still, but he probably didn’t know that his icy expression was scratching Lu Ming’s gradually recovering heart. Lu Ming was sluggish, trying to think hard. His words to retain Chi Qiu seemed very ridiculous.

With his heart about to swell and crack, Lu Ming clenched his back teeth and said with difficulty, “In this marriage, I will never betray you, we will——”

Grow old together.

These four unspoken words were interrupted by Chi Qiu: “I don’t need it.”

Not everyone could indulge in false love to their heart’s content, and not everyone could accept feelings of pity. Chi Qiu longed for love, but he was not a beggar.

He originally didn’t want to say this: “Lu Ming, since you have investigated me, you should know that for ten years, I can’t forget you. You are as precious as a star in the sky to me.”

A cold sweat seeped out of Lu Ming’s forehead.

Chi Qiu lost his expression as he said: “Even if you explain your intention to me…I may not refuse to help you, may not refuse to put on a show with you.””

“…”

“I like you so much, as long as you speak, I will definitely help you.”

Help you to take revenge, help you to fulfill your wish. If he had been honest with him from the beginning, Chi Qiu would definitely help him.

“Lu Ming, why did you have to lie to me?”

Now it was all too late.

Lu Ming’s whole heart was twisting in pain, so much so that his facial expression involuntarily began to twist and twitch slightly. He tilted his head, trying to hide his unnaturalness. His throat seemed to be clogged with a mouthful of fishy sweet blood that he couldn’t even cough freely.

He turned away, turning his back on Chi Qiu.

 

Outside the bedroom door, came Ji Yanchen’s voice.

Chi Qiu had been in for too long and Ji Yanchen, who waited outside, became more anxious that he couldn’t sit still. Regardless of everything, he only thought about going in first. So, as soon as he got to their bedroom, he happened to see this scene by accident.

Chi Qiu seemed to be a different person. The person who was once so gentle that he couldn’t even say a half-hearted word, now looked coldly at Lu Ming, who was as sullen as a stone, and the words were shard: “Actually, you are such a person. It doesn’t matter who you marry. Just because I can’t see, so I’m the most convenient for you, right?”

In addition to the fact that Chi Qiu looked like his grandfather, another point was that with Lu Ming’s apathy, he could only deceive a blind person like Chi Qiu to be his companion.

If it was Chi Xia, or anyone with normal eyes, they wouldn’t be able to stand his indifference that was comparable to an iceberg. The five-year marriage period was likely to never last and fall short.

So Chi Qiu could imagine how happy Lu Ming was when he learnt that he still hadn’t regained his sight.

So Chi Qiu could also understand why Lu Ming would flatly refuse Lu Fengshen’s kindness.

He could only stay by Lu Ming’s side as a blind man.

Having said that, Chi Qiu’s meaning was all expressed thoroughly, every word was heartbreaking. Lu Ming couldn’t help but hunch up his back, unable to move an inch. He couldn’t stand anymore and sat down weakly on the edge of the bed. He opened his mouth and closed it again, repeatedly.

He could not refute, because the truth was indeed as Chi Qiu said.

And the speechlessness again and again consumed Chi Qiu’s last patience.

“But you know what, Lu Ming? You will lie to me, and I will lie to you.”

Chi Qiu smiled silently, as if it was a ‘triumph revenge’ when it was rather sad to the point of being riddled with holes. Chi Qiu didn’t expect that in the end, he would tell Lu Ming his secret in this way: “My right eye has recovered very early, I can see every time you’re being perfunctory.”

“…” Lu Ming’s face grew paler and paler, one pair of eyes filled with blood and he covered them with force.

Chi Qiu was still chattering, as if this was the last time he and Lu Ming would speak to each other: “I always used to think that I was too greedy. Your condition does not allow you to have too much emotion to love me and your job does not allow you to have too much energy to be with me. So as long as you do a little something for me, I’m always happy and feel happy.”

Every word he said was a death sentence for Lu Ming.

Lu Ming was frozen in place by these few words.

Seeing Lu Ming who had nothing to say, Chi Qiu was almost speechless: “You also think I’m ridiculous, right?” He lowered his eyes, trying to pretend to be ruthless, but he couldn’t say anything else.

Ji Yanchen hurried forward and angrily wrapped his arms around Chi Qiu’s shoulders: “Don’t say it, let’s go, he deserves nothing, ba!”

Chi Qiu shook his head and looked towards Lu Ming again.

Lu Ming in front of him not only did not say a word, he was even gasping for air, looking like he had difficulty breathing and was in extreme pain. His sweat dripped down drop by drop, like tears, wetting the carpet.

Chi Qiu knew he was sick, but this time, Chi Qiu didn’t go up to hug him.

Ji Yanchen glanced at Lu Ming impatiently. Thinking that he was feigning pain, he said again: “Chi Qiu, go, ba.”

Chi Qiu brushed away Ji Yanchen’s hand and without hesitation, he went to the drawer and took out a bottle of medicine, twisted it open and poured out two pills into Lu Ming’s hand. Seeing that Lu Ming didn’t move, he held Lu Ming’s hand and let Lu Ming swallow the medicine. Until now, even though Chi Qiu had cruel words on his lips, he still couldn’t bear to walk away.

He clearly knew that Lu Ming wouldn’t die because of his illness and at most it would be painful for a while.

But that was all, Chi Qiu thought to himself: I can’t help him in the future.

 

On the other side, the Chi Family Villa.

Chi Lanyan got off work late today and arrived home late. She opened the car door with an umbrella in her hand. Because of the divorce, her mood had improved a lot recently and she entered the house gracefully.

As soon as she arrived home, the familiar smell came to her; it was the aromatherapy that Chi Qiu bought for her last time. She took off her high heels and shouted loudly, “Auntie Su, prepare my dinner and open a bottle of red wine.” She sat down easily on the sofa and stretched her legs.

She looked around: “Xiao Qiu?”

Usually, as soon as she arrived home, Chi Qiu must be the first to greet her.

But now the whole villa was empty with the lights on but not a single person in sight. There were cameras installed in all the public areas of the Chi family. Chi Lanyan opened the phone monitor and when she found that Auntie Su was in the kitchen, she was relieved.

Chi Lanyan guessed that Chi Qiu was probably going to Lu Ming’s to deliver food again. She was about to go ask Auntie Su when she heard a familiar voice from behind her back.

“Mom.”

Chi Lanyan’s phone suddenly fell to the ground.

Chi Lanyan turned her head and when she saw the person in pajamas in front of her, her eyes gradually became wet. Then, the person rushed over crying and hugged her tightly.

Chi Xia, who had just taken a bath, still had wet hair. As soon as she saw Chi Lanyan, her tears couldn’t stop falling, crying like a child and admitting her mistake: “I was wrong, mom, I shouldn’t have disobeyed you.”

Chi Lanyan was frozen in place, looking at Chi Xia in disbelief: “Xiao Xia you’re back…”

 

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