Translator – Xiao He Lian
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Chapter 142.1
Young Master Zhang is an eloquent person. With him around, there won’t be even a moment of silence.
Although Wen Chi is not very sociable, he does not feel awkward getting along with Young Master Zhang. Instead, he gets along very harmoniously.
Before leaving, Wen Chi felt much more relaxed.
Young Master Zhang sent Wen Chi to the door of the restaurant and warmly invited Wen Chi to meet again next time.
Wen Chi nodded in agreement.
Young Master Zhang was very happy when he saw this and immediately started chatting: “If you are willing, I will take you to meet a few people next time. They are pregnant like us and there are also two sisters who are pregnant with their first child like you. If you communicate more with those two sisters, maybe you won’t be so uneasy.”
Wen Chi stared at Young Master Zhang, he didn’t expect him to notice what he was thinking: “Is it obvious?”
“Young Master Wen, after all, I have given birth to two children. Besides, you have made it so obvious. How could I not see it?” Young Master Zhang didn’t know whether to laugh or cry, but he still touched Wen Chi’s shoulder comfortingly. “Anxiety is inevitable when you are pregnant with your first child. When I was pregnant with my first child, I was restless as you are and I often had nightmares at night.”
Young Master Zhang recalled the content of the nightmare and couldn’t help but shudder. He quickly shook his head to get rid of those horrifying images, he then said, “You’re just inexperienced, you’ll get used to it when you give birth to your third and fourth child in the future, but before that, it’s always good to get out and interact with people more often.”
Wen Chi imagined himself being pregnant with his third and fourth child and a chill ran down his spine.
Sometimes he doesn’t even want the child in his belly, let alone the third or fourth child. Besides, he is not a woman. Even if he can give birth to children, he is still a man so naturally it is not convenient to give birth as it is for a woman.
But this kind of words can be said in his heart. Now that Young Master Zhang is pregnant with his third child and is very happy, he couldn’t bring himself to say these depressing words in front of him.
“I understand.” Wen Chi said gratefully, “Thank you Young Master Zhang for your concern.”
Young Master Zhang smiled and said, “What’s the point of being polite between friends?”
The two said a few more words and Xiao Shuanzi led the carriage over. Wen Chi said goodbye to Young Master Zhang and then got into the carriage with Ruo Fang’s help.
Wen Chi sat in front of the window, lifted the curtains and looked out, just in time to see Young Master Zhang turning around and walking back.
The servant next to him wanted to give Young Master Zhang a hand, but Young Master Zhang waved his hand and refused. Young Master Zhang lowered his head and stroked his rather round belly, his eyes full of soft light.
The spring sunshine slanted down and enveloped Young Master Zhang.
The corners of Young Master Zhang’s mouth were slightly raised and his whole body exuded an unspoken sense of happiness. He stroked his belly very gently again and again and opened and closed his lips, as if he was whispering something – he was talking to the child.
At this moment, Young Master Zhang’s whole body radiated light from the inside out.
Wen Chi was fascinated by what he saw. It wasn’t until Ruo Fang patted him gently that he suddenly came back to his senses and lowered the curtains.
Ruo Fang asked strangely: “Young Master, what’s wrong with you?”
Wen Chi thought of the scene he just saw and cupped his hands over his abdomen, falling into deep thought, “Do you think I’m thinking too much?”
Ruo Fang was puzzled, “What is Young Master thinking about?”
“I…” Wen Chi took a deep breath, “I’m a little afraid of giving birth.”
Wen Chi has never said these words to Ruo Fang, nor had he ever said these words to anyone, for one thing, he didn’t feel the need to make his anxiety widely known, and for another, it wouldn’t help if he said it.
Moreover, he was just anxious. He was afraid of giving birth to a baby, but he never thought of getting rid of the baby in his belly.
Wen Chi always thought that it was normal for him to have these negative emotions, but as time went by, he found that he seemed to be stuck in a quagmire. Every time he struggled to get out, he would sink deeper.
Anxiety and uneasiness followed him closely, strangling him like a rope.
He had to read a lot of information to force himself to calm down, but after reading those books about men’s childbirth, the anxiety and uneasiness in his heart increased instead of decreasing.
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The book says that men are twice as likely to have dystocia than women. From ancient times to the present, countless men have died during childbirth. Both pregnant women and family members must be mentally prepared in advance.
Wen Chi was afraid of pain and even more afraid of death. He couldn’t imagine what kind of situation he would face in three or four months.
And Hua Yin, who has never appeared before…
And the poison in Shi Ye’s body…
Although Wen Chi never asked Shi Ye a word, these two things were like thorns piercing his heart, gradually depriving him of his vitality.
These two things, along with Wen Chi’s fear of childbirth, bound him and made him fall deeper and deeper.
Wen Chi even thought about it more than once – it would be great if the child had not come to this world.
It would undoubtedly be a burden for them to have a child now.
Until he saw Young Master Zhang basking in the sunshine, Wen Chi suddenly felt guilty.
He and Young Master Zhang are both fathers, but their thoughts were very different.
Young Master Zhang looked forward to the birth of his child with great joy.
And he…
Treating the unborn child in his belly as a burden that cannot be avoided.
For the first time, Wen Chi felt that the child had been wronged by him.
Wen Chi’s cheeks were blushing with shame and he retracted his hands holding his abdomen in an awkward manner, but soon, he pretended to put his hands on his abdomen again as if nothing had happened and touched it, only that the redness on his cheeks had already spread to the tips of his ears. He sighed and said, “I’m really not a good father.”
Ruo Fang was still wondering why Wen Chi suddenly jumped on this topic. After hearing what Wen Chi said, Ruo Fang quickly shook her head: “Young Master, don’t talk about yourself like that, you have already done a good job.”
Wen Chi didn’t know whether to laugh or cry: “What did I do well?”
Ruo Fang said: “Young Master has done well in everything.”
Wen Chi: “…”
He and Ruo Fang were really like a chicken talking to a duck1((“mutually unintelligible; unable to understand one another; talking about two different things; getting one’s wires crossed).
Wen Chi was a little disappointed and lowered his gaze, only to see Ruo Fang’s fair and small hand on the back of his hand. Ruo Fang’s expression was sincere, her eyes were hot as she said seriously: “This servant has never given birth to a child and maybe there will be no children in the future. So this servant can not fully empathize with the thoughts of the Young Master but this servant can see, can hear, can feel. This servant can see that the Young Master is slowly changing himself. This servant can hear the Young Master reflecting on himself. This servant can feel that the Young Master is trying very hard to create a good future for the child.”
T/N – Aww..I feel like crying. Ruo Fang says stuff once in a while that just goes right into your heart.
