(M) Chapter 13 – I Don’t Do Bottom
Novel Title: 谁把谁当真 (Winner Takes All)
Author：水千丞 (ShuiQianCheng)
Translator: K (@kin0monogatari)
Protagonists: 黎朔 (Li Shuo -MC), 赵锦辛 (Zhao Jinxin -ML)
*Please read at Novels Space.space, the original site of translation. TQ*
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As soon as they entered the hotel room, Zhao Jinxin pinned Li Shuo against the wall, pressing his scorching lips against Li Shuo’s. The kiss was forceful and urgent. It was a stark contrast to the usually playful and coquettish demeanour of the young man.
Li Shuo felt as though the gates within him had been kicked open. There was something roaring and releasing from within him, like a torrent instantly spreading to every inch of his body. It was a long-lost passion.
Li Shuo considered himself not a promiscuous person. Though he had indulged in some impulsive behaviour when he was younger due to novelty, he had managed to control both his body and mind well with age and career advancement. It had been a long time since he had experienced explosive desire from anyone. This was fundamentally different from indifference. While he certainly enjoyed sex, he could find other satisfaction in many other aspects of life, such as various achievements and self-realisation. For someone who had experienced life fully, sex was a necessary part of living but had long since lost its mystery and allure from his younger days.
But just now, in that unfamiliar little bar, Zhao Jinxin had reignited a strong desire within him. It was as if he had awakened a younger version of himself.
The two of them were pulling at each other’s clothes. No matter how expensive the garments, they were merely obstructive fabric now.
Li Shuo pressed Zhao Jinxin down onto the bed, their combined weight sinking them into the mattress. Looking at the young man with the wicked smile, Li Shuo felt his blood surge.
However, at that moment, he felt a twinge of hesitation. One reason was concern for the relationship between their families, and another… he thought of Li Chengxiu.
Zhao Jinxin almost instantly saw through his thoughts and provocatively said, “What’s wrong? Even though he’s dumped you, are you still planning to stay chaste for him?”
“Jinxin…” Li Shuo said in a deep voice, “Are we doing the right thing?”
“What’s right or wrong about this?” Zhao Jinxin gripped his open collar, forcing him down. With their lips close to one another, he said seductively, “Do you want to? If you want to, why are you still hesitating?”
“I’m not hesitating.”
Zhao Jinxin gave him a deep kiss, wrapped an arm around his waist, and flipped Li Shuo over. He pinned him down.
His large hand reached into his clothes, stroking Li Shuo’s warm skin above the bones. The attached layer of pliable muscles has an excellent feel and makes him not want to stop. Li Shuo’s mind was becoming heated. The tension was palpable—how could he draw back now? His hands are as conscious as he is, lingering on Zhao Jinxin’s waist, and finally stroking the chest muscles that he had stupidly watched in his photo. The full, elastic muscles seem to be able to attract human’s hands to touch them.
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Li Shuo suddenly pushed Zhao Jinxin away, struggling to maintain his composure even though he felt humiliated. “Sorry, Jinxin. I don’t do bottom.”
Zhao Jinxin firmly pressed down on Li Shuo’s shoulders with such force that Li Shuo couldn’t even rise. He wore a smile. But his eyes were fierce and domineering, like that of a beast: “Darling, do you know why I said you wouldn’t have a complete orgasm? Because you’re meant to be topped. If you don’t try, you’ll never know what you’re missing. I guarantee you’ll feel like you’ve wasted your past.”
Li Shuo was somewhat irritated. “I’m not interested.”
Zhao Jinxin remained on top of him, not allowing him to get up. He gently blew a breath on his face. “I have a good eye for people. Try it with me. I don’t believe you’re not even curious.”
“Curiosity doesn’t mean you have to try. Aren’t you curious to try it yourself?” Li Shuo retorted sharply.
“Of course I am.” Zhao Jinxin blinked his eyes.
“Then let me satisfy your curiosity,” Li Shuo said, gently pinching Zhao Jinxin’s chin. “Do you trust me?”
Zhao Jinxin chuckled. “But I can’t.”
“What do you mean?”
“My blood coagulation mechanism is inherently problematic. It’s hard for me to stop bleeding if I get injured,” Zhao Jinxin said with a smiling face. “It’s my first time. You can’t guarantee you won’t hurt me, can you? Can you really bear to do that, Li Shushu?”
Li Shuo felt a chill run down his spine. He wondered if Zhao Jinxin was making up excuses. He hadn’t had many experiences with virgins. And now with such a frightening reason given, his confidence in his own skills was wavering.
Zhao Jinxin kissed Li Shuo again as he softly and coquettishly said, “I’m not lying to you. I really like you and want to be with you. But the kind of thing you want, I really can’t do.”
Li Shuo turned his face away. “Then forget it, Jinxin. I can’t do it.”
“Why are you so averse to this?”
Li Shuo took a deep breath. “You’re… so much younger than me.” If it were someone of his own age whom he liked a lot, he might agree. But with Zhao Jinxin, who was almost a decade younger, he found it too embarrassing to be fucked by someone so much younger.
“Why do you care about age?” Zhao Jinxin whispered seductively in his ear. “Isn’t the most important thing the feeling right now? Don’t you want me?”
Li Shuo’s face was flushed with heat. But he couldn’t get over the psychological barrier. He turned his face away. “Jinxin, I can’t do it. Please get up.” After cooling down, his mind became much clearer. Maybe this was God’s way of showing that they weren’t meant to be together.
A shadow of disappointment crossed Zhao Jinxin’s eyes. He clenched his fist at first. But then, he slowly relaxed it. His expression turned to one of deep disappointment and dejection. He moved off Li Shuo, sat up, and said with a bitter smile, “I’m sorry. I guess I was being too self-indulgent. I thought… you might like me a little.”
“It’s not about whether I like you or not. You’re gay too. So you should understand that some things are hard to change and accept, especially at my age.”
Zhao Jinxin pursed his lips. He looked at him deeply and said quietly, “Then… Why don’t you just take me? I don’t mind. I just want to be with you.”
Seeing Zhao Jinxin’s hesitant expression, Li Shuo’s heart tightened. He felt a pang of sympathy. He stroked Zhao Jinxin’s head and said, “Jinxin, I don’t want to hurt you. I think we’re not suitable for each other. There’s no need to force it, right?”
Zhao Jinxin shook his head. “I like you. Even if you don’t like me, I still like you.” His bright eyes sparkled like a galaxy. “I promised to give you the best experience. If I can’t do that, then what’s the point of liking you? I don’t care about getting hurt, as long as it’s for you.”
Li Shuo felt a pang of guilt. Each of Zhao Jinxin’s words seemed to pierce his heart. The look of hurt on his face was more than he could bear. He pulled Zhao Jinxin into his arms, gently stroking his thick hair with his fingers. “You fool, I said I would never hurt you. I think we’re moving too fast and don’t know each other well enough yet. Or else, we wouldn’t have ended up in this awkward situation today. But I’m willing to get to know you better, okay?”
Zhao Jinxin rested his heavy head on Li Shuo’s shoulder, wrapped his arms around Li Shuo’s waist, and said expressionlessly, “Li Shushu, you’re really gentle.”
Li Shuo soothingly kissed his forehead.
Zhao Jinxin suddenly gave a meaningful smile. “You know… this situation is actually quite interesting.”
Li Shuo lay on the bed with Zhao Jinxin in his arms, lightly patting his solid back. He felt some remorse for unintentionally hurting Zhao Jinxin. This person really liked him. Otherwise, he wouldn’t be compromising like this. They were obviously both passionate, yet at the crucial moment, they discovered irreconcilable differences. Zhao Jinxin was hurt, and Li Shuo was quite disappointed too. But how could he accept this…
Li Shuo sighed heavily in his heart. Holding Zhao Jinxin felt like holding a living embodiment of desire—so close yet out of reach. It made him feel restless and frustrated. He was sure he would have a sleepless night.
After calming down and taking cold showers, both of them dressed and headed back. Since their families were living together, staying out all night together would be hard to explain.
At the door of Li Shuo’s room, Zhao Jinxin suddenly hugged Li Shuo’s waist from behind and said in a muffled voice, “Can we just sleep together?”
Li Shuo thought for a moment. “Let’s skip that.” He wondered how he would get through the night if they were together on the same bed.
Zhao Jinxin kissed him a couple of times and walked away, looking disappointed.
Li Shuo returned to his room, feeling like a mess. He checked his phone and email again. But there were no messages from Li Chengxiu. He was completely stressed and threw himself onto the bed, burying himself under the covers.
Where was Li Chengxiu? How should he handle Zhao Jinxin, who was so openly affectionate? He undeniably felt a stir of emotion for Zhao Jinxin. But it was just that—a stir of emotion.
Feelings always bring unnecessary troubles. Yet people cannot avoid them. He could only try to approach them rationally to minimise the sadness and disappointment.
As he lay drowsily in bed, the bedroom door was gently knocked twice. Li Shuo jumped up and whispered, “Who’s there?”
The door slowly opened. Zhao Jinxin poked his head in, cautiously saying, “Li Shushu, I still want to sleep with you.”
Li Shuo felt a mix of pity and helplessness. He reached out his hand and said, “Come here.”
Zhao Jinxin quickly snuggled into the covers and hugged Li Shuo tightly.
Li Shuo asked softly, “Can’t sleep?”
“Can you sleep?” Zhao Jinxin countered.
Li Shuo didn’t answer. He just patted Zhao Jinxin’s hand and said, “Let’s try to sleep.”
With Zhao Jinxin’s warm, solid chest pressed against Li Shuo’s back, both of them were restless but reluctant to disrupt the current calm.
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*Translator’s Note: Initially, ZJX used ‘GC’ in his conversation but I just changed it to ‘complete orgasm’ in this proofread version of my translation. GC stands for ‘G-spot Climax’. This term refers to reaching an orgasm through some specific type of stimulation. -K
*Proofread by 2024.07.26* I’m currently in the middle of the proofreading stage of my first ever translation; ‘Winner Takes All’. Lots of changes will be made especially to titles such as ‘Brother’ will be changed to ‘Ge’ and ‘Uncle’ will be changed to ‘Shushu’. I will proofread these chapters slowly when I’m free so please understand if there are any delays or discrepancies. TQ.
Proofread version of the rest of the novel will only be available on Novels Space.space while Mature Chapters will be released on Wattpad.
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